When Alpha Created Omega

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Very few things matter in the end when you're looking from the perspective of a Alpha. Our entire lifes are dedicated to growing our pack. We can only die a peaceful death when after we sowed are seeds back into the earth.

  Originally I thought that meant it was are duty to replace the nutrients we harvest from the earth.  Maturing made me realize it was about growing you're family. Now with Theodore seed sliding down the inside of my thighs.......my thought are starting to shift again. 

It's obvious we're not really a pack here.  If anything my mate is more of a Rouge. Very independent but limited to his own nature.  I can't help but to question myself.

Is that all we're ever going to be? Forever limited to both our natrual instincts? 

Shaking my head I try to clear away the  semi depressed thoughts.

Theodore is in the shower humming a light tune. Such a light happy whistle bounces off the walls. He sounds exactly how I should feel. Post orgasm I should feel tingles all up and down my body still. Instead all I can feel is the sudden heaviness of dried up cum.

I want to take a shower but I don't have the energy to explain my sudden change in emotions.

I call out to him while throwing on a plain white T-shirt over my naked body.

"Im going to make a late breakfast, do you want anything."

His tune turns into a chuckle before replying.

"That's called brunch sweetheart, and I'll grab somthing on the way to help my father with some paperwork.

I swear he would be lost with out me, the man can't count past 20 let alone budget his own bill's. "

I nod like he can see me.  Almost completely walking out of the room. Before realizing I never said anything back.

Kent used to make cooking seem so easy. He allways insisted on making everything for me. Making me feel like a spoiled princess. Now look at me I can bearly slap together a ham samwhich by myself. 

Staring at my medicor samwhich I sigh pitifully to myself before turning to get a glass off the counter. Instead of picking it up my finger tips  knocked it over clumsily.

The glass cup falls and instead of trying to catch it, I just watch it fall. My brain finally shuts up and stops pushing all these depressing thoughts to the front of my mind. Hearing the glass shatter was the music to unveiling my true worry. 

What if - Ringing from a distance made my awareness snap towards it. Sighing at the pile of glass I decide to leave it for now. Quickly finding the ringing to be coming from behind Theodore office door. 

He must have already taken off for the day. Sighing to myself again I push the door open and walk to his desk.

" Hello."

"Yes, This is Dr.Krif calling for your mate."

My heart speeds up and I feel like he has important information.

"He just stepped out for the day, he told me to be expecting you're call."

The lie falls casually off my lips, but it must have still sounded strange to him. Their was a heavy pause and then a sudden hesitation entered his voice.

"Well.....I guess I can pass on the information to you. Unfortunately the test results show a abnormal amount of teststorne in you're body. Its smothering you're estrogen."

That's all he says no elaboration on my condition. No magical treatment or even a suggestion to possibly help.

"So it's impossible for us to have children?"

" I wouldn't say its impossible for you to get pregnant and carry full term. All your organs are good its just you're hormones are way out of wack. As of right now you have maybe a 25% chance of being impregnated. "

It took every nerve in my body to remain calm while speaking.

"Well thank you, Dr.Kriff. we will be in contact if we need further assistance."

Before he could say anything else I slammed the phone into Theodore desk. Crushing it into peices. Staring at my bloody hand my sadistic thoughts swirl back around to not being good enough.

How are we going to build a life together of we can't create life to live in it? Im not sure how long I stood their staring at my cut up hand. At some point though warm hands helped guild me to the couch.

The white pristine couch Theo loves so much. Blood is going to taint it. My blood is going to blemish yet another beautiful thing.

"OH shut you're babbling! If Mr.tightAss has a problem with a bit of his hurt mates blood. On his precious couch then maybe he should go buy it in BLACK."

Apples snide voice breaks me out of my thoughts. Im not sure what to say to her so I just stare at her. While she magically produces a bandage from my hand.

"Listen, I been here before and I didn't have anyone to help me.  It sucks being sucked down into choas. Floating around with no hand to grab in site.

  Now after the numbness gos away you're gunna tell me what happened. "

Apple demands the details like usual but this time I can feel the softness she has for me. Tears well up in my eyes and before I know it im crying.

"Only 25% chance I can have Theo's baby. That means we only will have one chance to be parents.
One cha-

" IVEN! The only thing  you're leaving to chance right now is that I won't kick your ass. Your going to stop this crying right now.

Now tell me. What about Theodore."

"It's going to break his heart, I don't know how im going to tell him. How sho-

" No!! you silly goose. Did you forget your mated to a Omega? 

If he's healthy then he can be bred."

I shake my head slowly trying to clear away the image shes painting for me. Her warmth is welcoming so I lean into her as she moves to sit next to me.

" Baby girl, I know you wanted to carry you're own children. What mother wouldn't?

The hurt is normal to feel right now but you need to look at the bigger picture here. Both of you are blessed with organs that allow you to procreate. Now you said Theo doesn't know yet and that's a good thing."

The confusion is plain on ny face and she sees it.

" you don't need to tell him for now. Just take the time to heal your heart and by then he will be willing to carry the baby." Apple coos to me while smoothing my hair back from my face.

" How can you know this though? What if he never wanted to carry a baby?" I turn alittle towards Apple and let her hold me. I mumble into her chest 'what if im ruining his life?'

"If you know you love him and he loves you. Then that is all that will ever matter."