When Alpha Created Omega

Time vortex - Time Skip

Theo. Pov Time skip
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Everything fell into itself like a vortex around me. I was always tripping, spinning around some plan.

So cliche to say my life was never the same. Just moments flutter by when i reminisce back to the night I met her.

The second day after, it was a raw lesson. Set into my skin, that the bond was not going to be a marriage. A strong mating followed by being strung along the mountains.

Looking back, I could almost regret not trying harder. Why couldn't I just bend fully to her will then? Essentially, everything I had craved as a child. Was laid out before me. All I had to do was reach out and embrace it.

By the third day, their I was willing to throw away any chance at real love. For the comfort of my own normal problems.

The fourth night, I was lying in bed back home. I still couldn't sleep fully through the night. Paranoia and anxiety shook me awake. In my heart, my mate was still my wife. Eventually, we would have the formal event. Waiting would give her time to appreciate the meaning of the event.

So I had hoped.

When the office took me away for Five day's in a row. She kept the bed warm and a beautiful smile. Waiting just for me after work. Guilt pushed me to push Kent more towards her. She needed more than just a field to run in.

She was more than just an animal. This world offered a life of humanity . A chance to be free from are baser instincts.

I pushed for six days straight for her to eat normal food.

By the Seventh, I was just happy to see her relax with Kent.

Eight weeks go by, and Kent demands more time for himself. Hissed at me like a snake, taking advantage of her being out on a run. Complaining to me about being treated like a toy.

Why couldn't he understand I had my own problems. For starters, my mate still was not pregnant. Every day passing, I felt invisible. Hollow, like my skin could allow objects to phase through it.

With nothing left inside myself to give to her.

He looked so rejected and unappreciated. My hands wished to reach out to him. To try and comfort him. Try to show him he means more to me than just a distraction.

utter disappointment. Something was obviously wrong with me and Iven.

It took nine minutes for me to dismiss his feelings. As jealousy and loneliness. I wonder if that's when his resentment was born towards me.

Over ten years with me, and I threw it all away. Told him to get over himself and walked away.

Eleven missed calls from June.
Twelve unopened emails from father.
Thirteen new test subjects to run blood work on.

A whole Fourteen minutes June yelled at me, but I couldn't hear a thing. Focusing on the newest synthetic Alpha hormones. Drained me in ways I was ashamed of.

Pain.
Failure.
Pain.
Paralyzing fear, I destroyed myself beyond repair internally.

Sharp. Clearing pain raced through me for a split second. I'm hovering over myself in my minds eye.

Shadows surround me like a dark cloud. I'm covering my vision for a moment.

It's just a split second of emotional recovery before I'm split in half. Staring at a reflection of myself running down a tunnel.

We couldn't continue on like this. Either I had to involve my father or find a stronger subject.

I watched myself rush down to the cellar in our lab. My environment is blacked out, but I remember clearly.