Alone

Abandoned

A/N it's a free verse poem based off a book I was reading. It's fictional, but hey, it was fun to write! :)

There's a chill in the air but I don't care.
There's a chill in my heart but nothing new there.
I see you smile and I'm hit with a pang of regret.
I miss you. I miss this.

The memories are burnt into the back of my head.
I can't forget even if I tried.
Will I ever sink into oblivion
Forget the dreaded pain?

I remember walking through the door,
The smell of pastries mixed with sweaty teens.
The chairs lined up,
Waiting to be used.

We'd get in our circle
And say a few meaningless words.
You'd strum a few chords.
I'd smile in awe and jealousy and delight.

The night would progress
The laughter filling the air.
It smelled like teen spirit
And hormones bouncing off the walls.

Maybe that's how I liked it.
I was the bigger person.
Our walls made of concrete
Came tumbling down with one blow.

The things we'd joke about,
The events we reminisced.
The inside jokes we had
Those ticks and words and feelings.

I came back once,
Knowing it was my last time.
We said our few meaningless words,
Tears threatening to spill.

You'd strum a few chords
And I'd sing along.
Pain weighing my heart down
Sobs breaking the melody of the song.

The night progressed
And we laughed a bit.
It smelled like it always did
And you smiled like you always did.

The words that came next
Were like a stab in the back.
I knew it was over.
You wouldn't accept me back.

I was stripped of my dignity
As I walked out that door.
Tears stained my face
But you didn't care.

The bridge was burnt.
My heart was crumpled.
My faith in you was dead
And I knew that you abandoned me.