Alone

Escape, Maybe

*I feel upset and overly dramatic now. Here is the product of my despair and third cup of coffee. I'm a little over caffeinated.*

I yearn for someone
Who wants to understand me
And will set me free.

Free from my bondage
And the baggage I carry
And the pain I have.

I can't breath anymore.
I never want to wake up
From my restless sleep.

I always have to
Please others and not myself.
I don't understand.

When will I have done
Enough to earn myself back?
Whispers say never.

Whispers say alone
I will never be enough.
I'll never be whole.

I don't understand.
Who I really am inside,
What I want to be.

I am alone now
And the world passed me by.
That is how I feel.

So I'll close my eyes
And fake a smile for all
I'll pretend I'm me.

I'll pretend it came
And it took me far away.
It was my escape.

I will be ok.
Even though it hasn't come.
It will come, maybe.