My Love [Bella Swan GxG]

Chapter Sixteen

Bella's Pov
I always thought what me and Piper had was beyond anything I had ever experienced. When she told me those things in the forest it felt like she took half of my heart with her. I wanted to believe it was all just a bad nightmare, that she wasn't just avoiding me for days before leading up to the day that felt like death.

That it was just a sick creation of a dream of my wild insecurities coming to rid my mind with nothing but that and, when I would wake up she would be laying in bed with me holding me while playing with the strands of my hair. Her cold touch of her fingers stroking at my cheeks with interest as she whispered to me leaning her head down to connect our lips in a need sleepy kiss.

Of course that was only too good to be true, because when I woke up in the forest being passed over to Charlie I knew it was real, and that was the start of a rough downfall. I thought if I went to sleep every night I would wake up the next day and she would be there reassuring me that everything was okay that the house I spent so much time at wasn't empty. The empty lunch spot would be filled with the usual banter between siblings.

It was painful the way she plagued my dreams with endless nightmares, that once was a place of bliss and happiness. "Bella, Bella shush it's okay." I violently woke up through the shakes, the sweat cling to the purple sheet, looking around in my room with blurry visions of tears wrapping my arms around Charlie when he brought me forth closer to him, rubbing and patting at my back and head.

"I miss her.." I couldn't even recognize my own voice. I felt his soft hands still running in place over the same spot kissing the top of my head a couple times.

"I know honey I know."

When sleep wasn't plagued with her, so was my laptop and thoughts. If I wasn't at school I was sitting in the edge of my chair gazing out the window holding myself, watching the seasons pass and go. It was like she was still there, even at school sitting in the same empty spot. I just expected if I thought a little harder and prayed she would be there. I would see her goofy expression or her bored expression.

I found the only way I could reach her was through writing emails, of course I had no IP address to send them to, they helped ease the heavy a little. I glanced around the room, rubbing my palm down my face passing by the photo from my birthday. This couldn't have been a year ago? Piper didn't like photos but she looked so natural kissing my temple.

Picking it up with shaky like hands I folded up the piece so I wasn't in it, staring at it, I placed it on my bed dragging myself over to my dresser to get a outfit. Getting ready took a little longer before I was downstairs putting my backpack in one place over the seat slamming it, shipping around with my keys in toe, of course Charlie almost have me a heart attack.

"Oh hey." I greeted him relaxing my shoulders. A heavy sigh left his lips watching him place his hands above the Orange truck I listened to him speak closely.

"That's it. You are going to Jacksonville with your mother. I can't watch you hurt yourself." A strike of panic went throughout me, such a irrational thought. What if I left and she came back?

"No I'm fine dad." I lied through my teeth seeing him giving me a stare that all showed he didn't believe me.

"You wake up screaming every single night Bella, it's scary when you cry yourself to sleep. You don't hang out with any of your friends anymore. You don't talk to anyone since the Cullen's left." I licked at my lower lip quickly shaking my head a few times in place.

"No I still talk to my friends dad, I plan on going shopping with Jessica next week." He gave me a odd stare, folding his arms in place.

"You going shopping?" I gave him another quick head nod, brushing back all the brown curls that I could. I couldn't leave... How much I knew it would do me some good, I couldn't.

"Alright... I'm trusting you Bella." I gave him a awkward smile holding my arms out for him being pulled into a tight warm embrace I rested my head  on his chest shutting my eyes. I was thankful that even if it was just for a little while. She wasn't always in my thoughts. It at least brought me some peace. That the possibility was endless.