Chasing You

11

LACEY

My phone has been ringing ever since my mom made me bawl my eyes out over the phone. She's probably calling to apologize but I don't feel like hearing it. I had to turn my phone off at my first class and haven't turned it on since.

I have a headache and I know I look like shit.

Not to mention the fact that Braden and I almost kissed. I was emotional and I knew we shouldn't have been that close but I wanted to kiss him and I wanted him to kiss me. He has always been the only one who has understood what happens with my mom. It was so nice that he came in for me and even that everyone who was there made sure I was okay. I didn't think I had everyone and now that I do I feel unstoppable.

Well, kind of.

I am working on it and I have a therapy session today. Miss Kim is a queen who my dad hired on the low. I know I should call him and see how he is handling my monster of a mother. But, I've been avoiding my family.

Braden bolted out of the room after the Trey yelled about his mom calling. He left shortly after that and everyone knew something was up with him. And it wasn't just me but I am sure I did not help the situation. I swallow thickly looking back up at the board. My professor had moved into the next slide. I scribble down the notes I missed with my pink pen.

I lean back in my seat absentmindedly listening to my professor drone on about some theory.

Braden.

I know about his brother, well that before we left he was struggling with drugs. I hadn't heard anything else and to be honest, I don't think any one knows. I don't even know if Braden remembers telling me. He was pretty drunk when he told his younger brother was taking some pretty heavy drugs.

My chest feels tight all over again as I swallow back tears. I have another class after this one but I might chalk it up and email my professor that I'm sick. All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep for the rest of my life. Well, until I figure out what to do about my sorority.

The day my mom and I got into the fight I had went to the house to drop off shit that was due. When I get there our president and vice president were both talking to Jackie and Sabrina. I knew they were shit talking me.

My president, Caitlyn, called me over with her VP, Michelle, and said I was acting out of hand and if this continued I would be put on probation.

Well, what the hell could I have possibly done? That's what I was thinking because I generously invited bitch one and two to my apartment where they could mingle and get dicked down by an athlete, one that preferably wasn't fucking Braden or any of my roommates boyfriends. Not my problem no one fucking liked them.

I shift in my seat getting heated at just the thought of this conversation that went down. My president said I put Jackie and Sabrina in a "hostile" environment and I had no business bringing them to my apartment. And she threw in there a diss about Carter and Asher but should I be surprised when Kristen is her best friend?

Nope.

I was pissed when I left the house and then to get a call from my mom that the president snitched on my ass. Fucking ridiculous. I literally didn't even do anything wrong but God for bid our pres and VP aren't invited to a party.

The slideshow my professor was presenting ends and she finishes up class. I take my time shoving my books into my backpack because let's be honest I need a minute to relax. I am so frustrated at the events that are unfolding in my life it's not even funny. I'm frustrated because I feel like I can't do anything right and my sorority is one big bag of shit. And I don't know where Braden and I stand.