Our Im-possible Love (On-going)

chapter-41

Author pov
Alyan hit the pedal on the break at the red signal . His lips chewed between his teeth as he impatiencely waited for the red light to turn green . He was getting late to the class as he had waked up late due to the all dreaming at the night .

A smile rose his lips as he thought about amaal kindness yesterday . He couldn't put off the thought of how she cared about him , the tenses in her eyes for him , the way she was worried for him , the way she treated him ,all were running his mind since yesterday , he couldn't put off the thought for a second .

The feeling of being cared was foreign to alyan as he had never felt it as no one ever cared for him much . Even tho from outside his life looked so fine and dreamy for others, deep down he was empty and broken .he was desperate for love and careness ,he was dying to be loved by someone truly .

" No one want to become a monster,but sometimes situation make them to be one"   alyan read the quote that was tagged behind a truck . A smirk kicking his lips as he thought how accurate it was to his life , he never wanted to turn into monster if somebody could have showed him the love and guided him ,he wouldn't have been so cruel if someone would have planted a seed of love in his heart , he wouldn't have hurt so many people if he was thought the value of breaking hearts , but for his dismay , nobody ever thought him anything besides yelling at him and trying to dominate over him .His dry lips left a chuckle at remembering how his father always tried to win over him by his power and wealth where not even for once he tried to win him by love .

Alyan still remember how desperately he wanted to hold his father and hug him tightly  and call him dad like how his friends used to do with Thier father when they would come to pick them up from the school , but alyan father never once picked him up from school , it was always the house drivers taking him to school and back to home .

Alyan wanted to enjoy the son and father duo and wanted to have a healthy relationship with his father ,but then remembering at  what his father had done to him in the past ,he wasn't able to accept him as his father.

No one ever tried to give him the love that he was lacking , the care that he had lost at very young age . Alyan still remember the day when he had burnt his hands and was crying while hidding behind a sofa because his aunt had said him that if he would make a noise then he would be beaten by his family . Alyan had experienced many cruelty from his childhood , there was so much pain filled in him that he wanted to share with someone but couldn't as he didn't wanted to show himself weak . The way he was brought up made him to turn into a monster and the more he grow the more ruthless and cold hearted he was turning into until his heart again started to beat like human when he felt a sensation for amaal , he felt like a rebirth as the heart had turned into a stone once was now beating again ,just because of her .

He was too deep in his thoughts that he didn't realised that the signal had already gone green and people were beeping Thier horn of their vechile for him to move his car .

"Move the truck man " someone banged on his car doors , snapping him out of his thoughts .

" Opps , sorry " alyan hastily strated his engine and drove off in full speed .

After reaching the school building, he parked his car at his usual spot , his eyes lingered on the view mirror , gazing at his handsome feature.

" It's crime to be so damn handsome " he complimented himself while checking his face with his fingers touching the sharp cut of his jaw ." If I was a girl then I would have surely fall for my self "

Alyan pulled the dashboard and took out a handbandge and pasted it across his temple .

" If amaal would see this then she would surely get worried for me and would care about me again "  alyan giggled mentally and stepped out of his car while hanging his bag loosely on his shoulder strap .