Be My Star

IV

Oliver's (POV):

We'd gotten ready around eight-thirty to be get there early. We had been in our dressing room for an hour rehearsing You Are My Star hyping each other up trying to shake the nerves. When nine o'clock finally hit my entire body was flushed with adrenaline it was like I'd tapped into some untouched energy. About thirteen awards were given out — Kylie Jenner gave a speech, ZHC announced his engagement, KSI even accepted an Award, BTS won artist of the year again and KPOP BoyBand Of the Year as well. It kept getting closer and closer to us getting up on stage an performing.

"Oliver you good? You seem nervous, if you —"

"I'm fine, just nervous."

I said cutting  Seb off  gripping the edge of my chair taking deep breaths. This was the wrong time to let the nerves get to me, especially since this is our first award show live performance.  It was now 9:30 meaning it was finally time for us to go up on stage. Manager Ty And Seb stood up walking into the middle of the room.

"Alright— let's go out there and have fun! Everyone put your hands in - NorthStar Boys on three!"

"One - Two - Three — NORTHSTAR BOYS!!"

We all yelled to the top of our lungs feeling the pressure and nerves slowly getting heavier. The door opened and a guy who looked to be around our age with fair skin and quite muscular with a headset appeared a clipboard in hand.

"It's time guys — go ahead and follow the stage hands they'll show you to where you need to be."

He said gracefully a cheerful expression on his face as he pointed to the people standing out in the hallway. We all walked out of the room manager Ty behind us the pressure getting heavier and heavier the closer we got to our stage performance. When we got to the two little elevator thing that was directly under the stage everyone was put into groups and put into separate ones. I was with Seb, Ryan and Regie meanwhile Kane, Justin, and Darren were on the other one.

"Alright now this is what some of you have been waiting for — here are the NorthStar Boys performing there debut single YOU ARE MY STAR!!"

Olivia Rodrigo announced and the camera panned to the other part of the stage. When we started to move up and we're on stage I could feel my nerves disappear. It was like the rush of adrenaline was moving back and forth.

When we got off the stage and the stars were still screaming and yelling our names I couldn't stop smiling. We all ran into our dressing room feeling pumped up, but we had to go back out again to announce an award so there was no time to celebrate. After everything was said and done we got to take pictures with some of our idols and fans we had so many memories here, I didn't want it to end.

We arrived at our hotel around nine-forty-five  still feeling the adrenaline so we decided to stay up a while have a couple of drinks and just chill. We were the only ones on the top floor since we were in the presidential suit so we could play music as loud as we wanted. Unfortunately after a few too many drinks Kane nearly broke something and Manager Ty called it. I ended up having to carry Justin to bed, but I still wanted to stay up. While everyone was asleep I made my way downstairs to the living room surprised to find a half full bottle of champagne grabbing it I walked towards the Elevator when I hear something shuffling in the kitchen. Guess someone else was awake — maybe I could get them to have a drink with me. Making my way to the kitchen surprised to see Ryan of all people wide awake like this.

"Hey Ryan — wanna — come to my room — you know we have a lot to talk about."

I said drunkly stumbling over to him grabbing his arms smiling. He just looked back me scowling, but I couldn't take him seriously his cheeks were flushed and it just made him look so cute. Pinching his cheeks teasingly and in response he pushed me away.

"Huh? I know I left it somewhere around here —"

I heard manager Ty say, he sounded kind of weird but he was probably just a bit tipsy. Quickly grabbing Ryan shutting off the kitchen light pulling him down behind the counter. Putting my finger over my lips. If we got caught Tyler was for sure going to punish us, we had to get to the other stairs that lead to the other side of the room. Dragging Ryan out of the kitchen not stopping until we reached the nearest room, luckily it happened to be mine. Shutting the door behind us I felt my heart racing, but I couldn't help but laugh at the idea of us sneaking around like children.

"Why — did you bring me here? I could of just went to my room. Look Oliver I don't know what exactly is up with you and Justin and why you've two decided to mess with me, but I don't —"

He said walking closer to me nearly tripping over his foot I caught him, but we both ended up in the floor. I stared into his eyes as the moonlight shined over us and felt my heart starting to race all over again. Pinning his arms down I pressed my lips onto his kissing him passionately. His lips still felt as soft as before pulling back expecting him to push me away, but he was just staring at me his lips parted.

"Ryan — "

"Your such a jerk — even when I'm trying to hide my feelings for you, you won't leave me alone."

He whispered wrapping his arms around my neck pulling me down. As I kissed him this time more deeply I let my hands wonder under his shirt rubbing over every muscle. Slowly unbuckling his pants pulling out of the kiss a smile on my face. Pulling at his pants my heart racing as I stared at beauty mark on his inner hip. Letting go of his pants I sighed, I'm not going that far with him — not tonight it's best if we're both sober. I'd at least gotten a confession, he'd probably forget it tomorrow morning though we'll be back at square one.

"Olly — can you kiss me more?"

He asked looking up at me his eyes were big as the moon and cheeks were flushed. He looked to cute to deny something as simple as a kiss. Crawling onto my knees I put my arms under his legs and head picking him up off of the floor. He looked at me shyly quickly burying his head in between my shoulder blade and neck.

"I have to cherish him, there was no way for me to do that if we are both wasted right now."

I whispered to myself as I say Ryan down on the bed pulling the covers over him. Stripping out of my shirt throwing it onto a nearby chair before climbing into the bed diving under the covers wrapping my arms around Ryan not wanting this night to end. He suddenly turned around and laid his head on my chest staring up at me sleepily gazing.

"If your sleepy go ahead — I'm not really sleepy right now."

He nodded his head putting his leg over me as if he was afraid I'd leave him. Giving him one last kiss before he fell asleep in my arms. Maybe it's best if I keep my options open —