Be My Star

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Justin's (POV):

We only had three more days in Miami and we're trying to make the most of this trip. We've been to the beach three times mainly because Kane wanting to play volleyball. We'd stopped at a mall and of course Oliver was flirting with some girls who'd driven five hours just to see us. After dinner we just to walk around walking into different stores. I still felt like I needed to talk to Ryan and tell him to be careful of Oliver. Maybe it's not my place to tell him, he — probably could see from the way Oliver was talking with those girls that Oliver is a player. Even so I wasn't going to let him get hurt.

"Ryan — can we talk?"

I whispered so that none of the other members could hear us. Grabbing his arm dragging him into a nearby dressing room. I really cared for Ryan, ever since that kiss I've been thinking about him and seeing him kiss Oliver of all people made my blood boil. Shutting the door behind us I felt my heart racing, why did I feel like this?

"Ryan — I'm telling you this now — Oliver — isn't someone you should get involved with romantically. I — I .... Umm — "

I stuttered  nervously unsure of how to say what was on my chest. He was someone I cared about, and even though I was unsure of my feelings for him — there was no other way of saying anything I had to be honest. Taking a deep breath trying to pluck up the courage to say what I had to say. For days I'd been thinking about him giving him his space hoping he'd come to me instead Oliver —

"Justin — what's wrong?"

Ryan asked in a worried tone putting hand on my shoulder comforting me. I didn't want him to comfort me, I wanted him to explain to me why he was choosing Oliver of all people, someone who always made it clear he's a player. Maybe that's what's wrong, if I'd be more serious I could show Ryan the person who really cares about him is me. Grabbing Ryan's hands staring into his eyes dropping onto my knees the butterflies in my stomach were doing loops.

"Justin — "

"Ryan — I know you told me not to over think things and I didn't at first because at that time I thought you were right. Now I know your wrong! Seeing you kiss Oliver made me realize just how much I cared for you, and now I'm going to say something I should of said a long time ago — Ryan — Oliver isn't good for you, he's our bestfriend and I thought you'd know well enough that he's never going to be serious."

I said staring into his eyes watching as his emotions shifting . He was hurt, shocked, and angry all of those emotions were understandable. Right now I wanted to be honest with him, even if it means bad mouthing my friend whom I cared for, but when it comes to Ryan I refuse to let him fill his head with such lies. He snatched his hands away from me I could see all his anger slowly rising, but in the back of his mind he knew it was the truth and that I'd never lie to him. He turned away from me grabbing the handle of the door I quickly pulled him back slamming him against the wall holding his hands over his head.

"Ryan — I'm not only saying this because I know how this will end, but because I'm in love with you —- and I refuse to —"

"Hey — Shh we can't get caught here I do like you, but I don't want to lose my job."

I heard a girl say out in the hallway looking over at Ryan I could see the fear in his eyes and before I could stop him he was already out the door. Running after him grabbing at his arm but it was to late he'd seen Oliver with his arms wrapped around a girls waist. Giving a nervous chuckle smiling awkwardly feeling bad that the girl had to be in the middle of this squabble. For a second we all just stood in the hallway staring at each other no one saying a word just exchanging looks.

"Hey — Georgia — we need you at the cash register— oh umm — "

A guy with short blonde hair, glasses similar to the ones Oliver wore sometimes and a smaller build walking towards us stepping back when he saw all of us just standing in the hallway. The girl gave a sheepish grin before taking a piece of paper out of her pocket writing something down then stuffing it in Oliver's pocket before leaving with the blonde guy. The moment she left I felt the tension in the room getting worse it was sucking all the oxygen out of the room.

"I told you — "

"Shut up the fuck up Justin."

Ryan said angrily through gritted teeth turning to me. I could see the tears in his eyes, but he wouldn't cry in front of us he'd never do that. Oliver shook his head before grabbing Ryan trying to drag him away, probably to fill his head with more lies. Pulling Ryan back towards me at this point I was literally having a tug of war with Oliver.

"Let me go!"

Ryan yelled snatching his arms away backing away from both of us. I could hear the pain and anger in his voice hopefully he was going to take what I said to heart. Oliver was just a player— I cared about him and that wasn't going to change. Ryan turned around walking down the hall towards the exit without saying another word to either of us.

"Just leave me alone —"

"Ryan — that night you said you liked me — that you had feelings for me — I know you might of forgotten, and even though you were drunk I feel like you'd react differently if it wasn't true right?"

Oliver said stepping a few steps closer a glimmer of hope in his eyes as Ryan stopped a few feet away from the exit. My heart sunk into my stomach and the butterflies started to feel likes balls of fire flying around in my stomach. I found myself staring at Ryan waiting for him to respond and yell at him that it was lies that he never said that or that he was just drunk and it didn't mean anything, but he just stood there tears in the corner of his eyes.

"Ryan — I don't know what to do — you started to avoid me after the kisses we've shared before, the first one at the photoshoot and the one after the MTV AWARDS performance in my room."

Oliver said walking over to him walking around to stand face to face to him. He smiled gently placing his hand on Ryan's head running his fingers through his hair. My blood started to boil even more, what the hell was this guy playing at? Walking over to Ryan wanting him to tell me that this was all lies, but I knew he'd just yell at me again. Instead I walked past them not even uttering a word to either of them staring straight ahead holding back the tears stinging my eyes.