Be My Star

IX

Oliver's (POV):

Waving goodbye to Georgia and as soon as her car was no longer in view I walked back into the house to help clean the house. Walking into the living room grabbing the broom realizing that two members were missing — Sebastian was no where to be found and neither was Justin.

" Hey, guys where is Justin and Sebastian?"

I yelled out over the chaos wondering why no one else was just as worried as I was. Everyone started to exchange looks for a minute before dropping everything they had when suddenly Justin appeared covered in dirty not only that his knuckles were bloody. Behind him was Sebastian who seemed a little nervous and anxious. Justin didn't greet us instead he just walked up the stairs and Sebastian followed.

"That's weird—- what the fuck is going on with them?"

Darren said snatching the broom from Regie earning a displeased look. Looking over at Manager Ty watching the wheels in his head turn, it was scary I didn't want to think those two had a fight last night after I sent Seb to check on him. Suddenly manager Ty swiped his phone off the table before soon following the Justin and Seb upstairs. Honestly it was impossible both of them knew the risk and wouldn't do something so stupid. Turning around to put the trash bag into the trash can since Darren had already emptied it when I felt someone's eyes on me. Looking up slowly my eyes met with Ryan who looked a bit flushed. Walking over to him taken aback by him practically running away from me.

"Alright guys let's get this done— we've got a photo shoot today and our stylist wants us to come early to check out the clothes they've prepared."

Manager Ty suddenly yelled out from the top of the stairs before disappearing. We all sighed in unison, but the one thing that was running through my mind was what happened last time we were at a photo shoot — me and Ryan kissed.

It took as an hour to clean the house and Cure our hangovers. When we were finally done we did four TikTok's, and two of the boys had posted videos for their individual channels after we did that one for the group channel.  We headed onto the venue for the photo shoot, when we got there we reached picked out four outfits and headed to take individual photos first. I choose a room with a thrown in it liking the concept of it. Since I finished my duo's now it was time to take solos.

"Hey, Bae — oh umm I — Manager Ty needs to talk to you after your done with — "

"No need we've done everything."

I interjected quickly walking over to Bae staring into Ryan's eyes as he became more nervous. Bae gave an awkward room before exiting the room his footsteps disappearing down the stairs. Ryan must of read my expression because he turned around giving an smears laugh before walking towards the door. Cutting him off grabbing him by his wrist dragging him into an empty room that was marked out of order.

"Ryan —  I know your angry with me. Last night made me realize that I can't be unfair to you, myself or Georgia. I still have feelings for you, even though you don't feel the same I'm willing to try and sun your heart."

I said pulling him closer smiling as his face became scarlet red even though he was trying to seem as if my affection towards him upset him. Dammit, why can't he just admit it — that he's got feeling for me, had he lost his feelings for me? Pulling away letting my arms fall to my side as I turned away. Suddenly he spun me back around pushing me down onto the fur carpet mounting me locking his lips onto mine. Running my fingers through his hair smiling as my heart started to feel less heavy. He pushed me away his expression full of anger, but deep down he knew that he'd finally acted on something he's wanted to do.

"I'm sorry, I don't — know why I did that. Look Oliver we have to stay friends its better this way. No matter what my feelings are towards you a relationship within the friend group isn't good."

He said getting up dusting himself off then backing away, but I quickly jumped up grabbed onto his arm pulling him back to me. He wouldn't admit that he was afraid, but I'd he was determined to go this route with me this tiring game was getting pretty tiring. One second he wants me then the next second he's pushing me away. Honestly this tiring game was to much for me — I had to put my foot down whether I liked the idea of putting Ryan in that position where he has to choose. Taking a deep breath letting out a weary sigh letting go of his arm letting my arm fall to my side.

"Look Ryan — either you like me or you don't, I don't want to be strung along. When you can finally can make a choice you know where to find me."

I said walking off not giving him a chance to respond shuffling down the stairs surprised to see that everyone had finished their solos, and duo's. Walking over to Seb who was nervously shaking his leg staring at his phone then back at Justin who was hysterically laughing at something Kane was saying. Brushing my hand on his arm jumping back when Seb suddenly jumped his eyes wide with shock.

"Seb are you ok? You have been acting really odd since that party last night. Did something actually happen between you and —"

"No! Just — I'm fine no need to hover over me I'm not a child."

He said venom behind his words as he stared me down. Biting my tongue knowing whatever Seb was going through I'd have to understand he doesn't mean any of it. Shrugging it off I just simple nodded watching as he walked off heading towards Justin who quickly brushed him off. If there was anything going on between those two I should trust them to handle it, plus I'm dealing with enough right now. When we finally finished the photo shoot we got food then headed home. After everyone finished t their food everyone headed off to bed except me, I wanted to work on some new songs to get my mind off Ryan.

"Hey, can you help me find Justin and Seb it's their turn to clean the kitchen."

Regie said opening my door a little peeking his head in his wet hair shining in the light. Throwing my phone down on the bed I swung open my door walking past Regie curious why I was on search and rescue. Walking around the house searching the rooms again to make sure he didn't miss anything then something in my gut suddenly told me to go and check the garden. Slipping on my bedroom slippers that is left down stairs I walked out side a chill going down my spine as the cool night air hit my body. Walking to the garden stopping midway when I reached the middle of the garden and spotted Justin  with his arms wrapped around Seb's waist. Hiding behind a bush I watching as Justin kissed on Seb's neck.

" — Look last night was fun, I really like being with you and I think this should be our little spot."

"Ok — that's fine — just tell me the truth are you really over Ryan?"

There was a deafening silence then Justin let out  a sigh that made me feel uneasy. So there is something going on between Justin and Seb. My mind was racing with so many questions, but I'd only be able to get an answer if I went and asked Oliver.

"I just want to know because your my first — guy — I've ever been with — I've been with many girls but none of them compare to the bond I have with you."

"I know — and to answer your question —— yes I'm over Ryan.. he can't make up his mind and I'm tired of dealing with his childish games. I love you and I want you."

This was going to get out of hand — something in my gut was telling me so...