Be My Star

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Ryan's (POV):

It's been three whole months and Oliver hasn't said a word to me about the ultimatum he gave me. He's just been acting friendly and as if nothing ever happened between us, which is what I should want I mean — I'm the one who told him us being together was a bad idea and yet I feel like my heart is being squeezed. Shutting off my computer after finishing up my game deciding that I'd confront him just to make sure things between us was fine, that's all. Pushing back my chair standing up and stretching before walking out of my room heading to Oliver's room. When I finally reached his door I felt knots in my stomach the type I use to get when he was around me.

"Ok you can do this."

I said holding up my hand to knock on the door, but now all I could think about was him kissing me. Slowly letting my hand fall backing down when suddenly the door swung open revealing Oliver in nothing but a towel drenched in water. Sheepishly grinning I felt my face become more red as our eyes locked. There was nothing I could say — my mouth had gone completely dry.

"Ryan — oh — umm did you need something?"

He said looking around crossing his arms his piercing stare was making my entire body feel hot. This was pointless if I backed down every time — I had to say something— do something—- without hesitation I pushed him into the room slamming the door shut. I sighed trying to pull myself together before turning around to face him. Walking toward him not realizing my foot had gotten caught in his chair and went flying into his arms causing us to both to fall onto the floor and Oliver's towel to fall to his ankles.

"Ah — ahh - Ryan — are you — oh I'm sorry —"

"I — your — it's —"

I stuttered feeling his member hitting my stomach he was big — I wonder just how many girls has he broken and driven crazy with that thing? Fuck! What am I thinking about? Pushing myself up onto my knees pressing my hands onto my knees staring at his member unable to take my eyes off it.

"Look do you have something you need?"

He said in an irritated tone, but his expression was different he was irritated with me but amused. He was right — he was —

"Ryan — look about that that ultimatum there's no need to keep thinking about it — if you don't want it give in to your true feelings then that's fine. Im just not going to wait around for you and keep letting you lead me on."

Oliver said leaning in closer his body smelled of old spice and his breath of crest white mint toothpaste. My urges — my heart—- could I give into them, and let go of my fear. No matter how much I think about it the more I've tried to fight it the more it's hurt me— and kissing him has made me realize just how much I wanted to be more than friends. Leaning over I kissed him roughly smiling as the pain in my chest faded away. Pulling back smiling ear to ear  like an idiot not wanting this to end.

"Ryan are you sure you want to do this? I don't want to be strung along."

"I'm sure."

I said kissing him again and again unable to control myself. For a while we just laid in his bed talking and making out just simple things. One thing I wasn't going to come clean about was the time I got a boner from him hugging me and what I did in the shower after because it was waay to embarrassing. For the next few days any time we had free time we went on dates just deepening our bond a little more. So far all the worries I'd had weren't relevant. The one problem was actually Justin — I felt like he should know that I'm happy and that everything he thought was going to happen wasn't happening any time soon or in the future. Walking to Justin's room surprised to see that his door was ajar. Peeking in unable to process what I was seeing, my jaw was on the floor. He was on top of Sebastian riding him the sheets covering his ass and the sounds of his faint moans were kind of making me feel odd. Turning away unsure of what exactly I could say when Manager Ty appeared walking my way.

"Hey is Seb in there we have a meeting to get to and —"

"Yeah buts he's getting dressed right now he said to tell you he'll be out in a few minutes."

I said speaking in a loud enough voice so that they could hear me. Even though this entire thing was awkward I would protect them both because at the end of the day their still my Bestfriend's. Tyler gave me an awkward stare and I thought he didn't buy it for a second, but he just just nodded his head and mouthed ok before walking off. Suddenly I felt the door behind me open behind me and a cool breeze hit my neck. Seb ran past me jogging down the stairs behind him Justin who had scratch marks on his back and hickeys covering his neck.

"Justin I —"

"Look I'll be happy for you — no matter what in the end I think we've both found someone we can count on. If you want to continue to pursue Oliver —"

"Well actually I don't have to anymore, we are together now."

I said cutting him off turning to face him expecting him to give me a look of disappointment and disbelief, but he was genuinely happy for me. He slipped on his shirt before giving me an awkward smile then heading into his room on the other side of the house. I couldn't believe it — had Justin actually found love — guess I didn't need to worry about him.
Though now I felt — a bit "bothered". I couldn't ask Oliver to —

"Ryan — I've got to go to another meeting with Seb and Manager Ty — I'll see you tonight alright just wait for me in my room."

He said kissing me on the cheek then dashing down the stairs my heart pounding as he disappeared out of my line of sight. Rubbing my cheek slowly making my way to his room unable to think of anything else but him.

Hours passed and it seemed like it'll be eternity before he returns not to mention my body was stilling feeling weird after seeing Justin and Seb. Rubbing my hand over my member unsure what to do — I couldn't do this in his bed he'd be so mad, but I feel so frustrated. Unzipping my pants slipping my hand into my boxers slowly moving my hand up and down unable to control my wild thoughts again.

"Ffuck — Oliver — Oliver — Olly — aah — "

I moaned softly not wanting the boys to hear me saying such lewd things. Fuck! Moving my hand faster now thinking about how Oliver would please me in bed. Right as I was about to reach my climax I heard a loud gasp and my eyes met with Oliver's Biting my lower lip feeling embarrassed wondering how was I going to explain this to him?

"So — guess you really couldn't wait until I got home."

He said suddenly snatching me up off the bed pulling me into a kiss my pants falling down to my ankles. He smiled before dragging me into the bathroom stripping out of his clothes then helping me strip out of mine. He turned on the water pulling me into a steamy kiss dragging me into the shower grabbing soap washing me carefully then washing himself. I didn't want to feel so useless so I dropped to my knees staring at his 6 inch thick member unsure of how my mouth would fit it in my mouth. Taking a deep breath I licked the tip kissing it then proceeded to take him into my mouth. Bobbing my head back and forth breathing through my nose trying not to choke.

"Aah! Aaaah! Ryan! Your — throat is clenching up to much it's so tight."

He moaned loudly throwing his head back as I took his member into my mouth pushing myself to take in every in inch. He pulled me off quickly gasping for breath his body quivering as he stared down at me.

"—- Dammit! Ffuck — alright time for the real thing — turn around and bend over."

He said after tearing open a condom with his teeth shoving it on then spinning me around pushing me up against the glass. Bending over bracing myself to take him unsure if I was able to back down now even when I've come this far. He turned off the water then started to press his tip against my hole and slowly started to enter me I could feel my body tensing up. Pulling away a little only to have him grab onto my hips pulling me back.

"Aah! Aaah! Tight!! Your so fucking tight!!"

He moaned pulling me up by my hair speeding up his pace. I could feel my legs buckling as he started to ravage me more — I couldn't think straight. I could barely stand up straight my head was fucking spinning. I wanted more of him — putting my hand on his stomach both us breathing heavily struggling to catch our breaths.

"Let's take it to the bed."

I said staring into his dark brown eyes smiling ear to ear again. He gracefully swept me up off my feet carrying me to the bed after we dried off before getting into it.