Blue

Chapter 11

It was currently five in the morning and I still have yet to go to sleep. My mind was tired but my body wasn't. My mind was battling my entire body, telling me to go to sleep.

I got out of bed once again and wrapped the blanket I had around my body. I also grabbed my phone, earbuds, and laptop, and went downstairs. No one was down here so I decided to go outside again. Although I'd get lost in my thoughts it was still calming going outside.

Sitting in the same seat I was a few hours ago and put in both earbuds and shuffled my playlist.

I opened my laptop and went to email. I read an email from Mr. Ross and read that he was checking up on me.

Anna, I hope that you're doing okay with everything going on. I've heard some of the stories from both Jordan and your father and I just hope that you and Milo are okay. Although I know that you're in another state, just not what city, I want you to know that you can always talk to me. Even though we're on a break right now, I'm still your licensed therapist and your friend. I just want you to know that I'm always open and you can talk to me.

~ Mr. Ross

I smiled at his thoughtfulness and decided to type back. I don't know why he emailed me when I have his number but I didn't think anything of it.

Hi Mr. Ross! Thank you for taking the time to email me this thoughtful letter. Things have been busy but Milo and I are both okay and I want to thank you for your concern. I will most definitely keep in touch with you and hopefully, we'll have our meetings again soon.

~ Annalise Johnson

Sending the letter, I closed out of Gmail. Really all of the stuff that was popping up was school related so it didn't matter much anymore. I still haven't decided if I want to go to school or not, I'm having mixed thoughts.

There really wasn't much to do so I just watched the sunrise. Everyone was still asleep, or at least in bed. I needed something to do but I was too scared that if I went outside on my own that something would happen. Usually, I wouldn't be cautious but with everything going on, why wouldn't I be?

I placed my knees close to my body and leaned my head back on the chair. I pulled the blanket I had brought close to my body and watched the sky turn a variety of colors. It was calming in a sense and made me relax enough to feel at peace for the first time since I'd been in Cali.

I heard the sliding door open and looked behind me to see Milo standing there. He was cuddling his dinosaur and had his blanket in his arms. He was also crying?

"Mi, honey, what's wrong?"

When I asked this he lost it and started crying, covering up his face.

I quickly got out of the chair I was sitting in and went over to him.

I got down to his level and he looked at me with his teary eyes before hugging me around the neck. I picked him up and just let him cry. I sat back down in my seat and he moved to where he was almost laying in my lap, laying his head on my chest.

I ran my hand through his hair in the hope to calm him because of how hard he was breathing.

"Momma.." he whispered once he'd calmed down.

My eyes slightly widened thinking she was here, "What?"

"In my dream—"