control ya' self.

twenty nine.

skye 🥀

baby has been growing so fast. i feel like i grew over night. i still dunno what i'm having, my gender reveal coming up soon! but little ole hoe me still dunno who the baby daddy is. iss causing stress on me, i needa vent but don't wanna be judged. lemme call nova

'hey siri, call nova dumb ass' i said picking up a few clothes that i've thrown into separate piles or what i'm keeping & giving away.

i flip through the pictures i took earlier, ima post em' on ig, this gon be my pregnancy announcement too. nothing too much.

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two rings in 'hey baby momma! how baby girl doin'? you getting big best!' she said yelling into the phone — she swear issa girl lol

'hey girl, they good. you know i don't put a gender on them til i know but fingers crossed issa girl'

she chuckled & asked what i was doing today. told her i was chilling & wanted to hang out. she immediately hops up, i hear her keys jiggling indicating she must be on the way.

'i'll see you ina few. make sure u got ur key, im cleaning & blasting my music' i said before she nodded then hung up

i continued to clean up my room vibing to my music. ten minutes go by & i hear some keys slide along my island in the kitchen. must be nova. i try getting up off the floor quick but can't move as fast as i used to with my big bump.

'hey giiirl!! lemme help u up' nova said running toward me

she helps me up, i get alittle light headed but it ends up stabling.

'whew girl, this bump carry some weight' i say as she rubs my tummy

'hey tt baby! i love you. what you doing in there?' nova talks to my tummy & the baby starts moving knowing her voice

i smile at her talking to my baby. she's gonna be a great auntie.

'nova i needa talk to you ab sumn.. i know i'm not supposed to be stressing but thas why i wanna vent instead of holding it in' i said going to sit on the edge of my bed looking at my feet

she comes to sit on the bed with me & starts scrolling on her phone 'wassup babes? you know i'm here.. no judgement here'

'i-' i start off then my eyes begin to fill with tears, i sniffle alittle causing her to look over at me

'you good?'

'i- i dunno if alyx is rly the father....' i said twiddling my fingers

the silence that broke out was ridiculous.

she finally begins to say 'do you have an idea at least? i know he is one but is there anyone else you may think could possibly be the father?'

'alyx & kea...' i break down as i'm ab to say his name

i start sobbing & she grabs me pulling me into a hug, jus comforting me as i let the tears run uncontrollably from my eyes

'i don't want to be judged.. pls don't judge me i jus found out not too long ago. he he he he' i start stuttering uncontrollably while snot runs out of my nose

nova grabs a few kleenex off my dresser & hands them to me.

'bitch now how long we known each other for me to even think of judging you?' she said staring at me

we both broke into a light chuckle, she lets me catch my breath before i begin to speak again

'so... the other potential father could be keanu...' i twiddle my fingers tg & sniffle

nova face draws a blank. it doesn't look like she's thinking. it doesn't look like she's gotten anything to say. hell don't even look like she breathing.

'keanu keanu?' she asked & looked at me

i nod

she holds her hand out dapping me up. we do our handshake but i'm confused til she buss out saying

'THAT NIGGA FINE!' she said nod aggressively

i bust out laughing, this bitch stupid

'you know what' i shake my head at her, smiling

'what? i'm keeping it a band'

'you right you right' i nod

'but no like they homies. so if word gets out you know. he dunno i used to talk to alyx or anything we got going on.'

'well bitch you gonna have to tell him before he find out on his own' nova says digging through her tote bag

'i know but how do i even go into that conversation. that shit gon make me uncomfortable.' i said looking back down

'but how you think he gon feel if you don't tell him? he gon feel uncomfortable round guap n'nem — you can't think for yourself no more. not even being no bitch but cmon na. baby girl coming into the world & potential guap or keanu can be her father, he gon find out one way or another. cmon skye' she said pulling out some skittles

'oooo bitch u gotta share' i held my hand out

'you needa tell him skye fr.'

'i need to get my words tg. ima tell him fr it gotta be before the baby shower bc i wan him to be besides me bc i know alyx not even gonna play it cool'

i wipe my eyes bc i feel myself boutta cry again.

nova wipes the ones that fell effortlessly.

'you hungry? u wan slide by cfa?' nova begins to grab her tote bag

'i gotta get these clothes out the washer, you kno'ont leave when doing laundry. can't have my clothes sittin'

nova scoffs & asks what i want to eat.

'i'm craving one of dem cookies! number one, no pickles add colby jack cheese. strawberry milkshake & a large fry'

nova stares for a minute, then ask 'anything else for baby girl?'

'hopefully it is a girl...' i look down while rubbing my tummy. 'she told me to tell her tt that she wants a hot sausage & salt n'vinegar chips'

nova laughs & grabs her keys 'i'll be back best'

'okay best!' i grab my phone & see keanu had texted me:

nu pooh🤎💸🔌:
hey baby, how's baby girl? 💗

hey love 😘 we are good. lol you want a girl so bad but no lie same but healthy baby me.

she's gonna be healthy, what you doing?

nova was ova hea but she went to grab some snacks.

we text back & forth few more times before i drift off to sleep bc he was taking too long to reply. nova gotta key, she'll wake me up when she back.