(DISCONTINUED) Forbidden | Ahsoka X Reader

Chapter 4

Y/n's pov 

When we got on the venator I saw Ahsoka was exhausted, even more than before, "you alright?" I asked hugging her "no, half my men died," she replied "Ahsoka, you-" "Ahsoka, can I talk to you for a moment?" we looked to see it was Anakin "sure, see you later," she replied and went off with him.

An hour later I sensed a shift in the force. I walked to Ahsoka's room, because why not? but when I arrived I heard sobbing. I opened the door and found her crying into her pillow, I closed the door and walked over. "Hey, what's wrong?" I asked putting a hand on her shoulder "Anakin said I'm useless! I could barely keep up with Grievous! I let half my men die!" she exclaimed "Anakin is wrong, you can't control how many men die under your command, and you couldn't keep up with Grievous because you need rest," I replied as I started stroking her lekku, Ahsoka sat up and looked at me "but I should have done more! I'm useless!" she yelled, I frowned and pulled her into a hug "those are both untrue, don't ever think otherwise," I argued and she started crying into my chest. I couldn't help but feel sympathy for the girl I can't help but love. "I don't deserve you," I muttered.

When we got back to Coruscant Ahsoka still hadn't slept, it's beginning to worry me.

As we walked towards the council chamber I noticed Ahsoka's face was losing colour, and her lekku were almost pure white. "Ahsoka, you're not well, come on let's get you to a healer," I said grabbing her as she almost fell "no she needs to report," Master Tiin ordered "she's about to pass out, I'll give them the report later. They'll understand," I replied and began to carry her now limp body. 

When we got to the halls of healing I put her down on a bed and a healer came over. "What happened?" she asked "she hasn't been sleeping, she's been sick for the last day or so, and I don't think she's eaten anything in a week," I explained and the healer was surprised "okay... I'll get to work, would you mind leaving us for a moment?" she requested "alright, but let me know when she wakes up," I replied, she nodded and I left.

I arrived in the council chamber and found my master was now in his seat. "Your report?" Master Windu asked "Kamino is safe, that's all there is to it," I replied "Padawan, what happened on the mission?" Master Mundi asked "I don't know about the orbital battle but I know that they came through the bottom of the city, I fought against waves of droids and Ventress and lost a hand in the process, Ahsoka fought Grievous, unfortunately a lot of men were killed. I also discovered I might be a father, so that's interesting," I explained "where is Padawan Tano? we asked for both of you no?" Master Windu asked "she's in the halls of healing, because she is sick and exhausted," I replied "that is no excuse," Master Mundi argued shocking me "how bad is her condition?" Master Plo asked "she's lost most colour on her skin and lekku, she passed out in the hall, I think she's thrown up a lot," I said "like I said before, she shouldn't have gone on that mission," I added glaring daggers at Master Windu "we needed her to," he replied "then why didn't you go? there are hundreds of jedi at the temple, why make her go?" I asked "because I have other matters, and the other jedi were needed elsewhere," Master Windu said "what were these 'other matters'? did one of them include sitting in a chair all day?" I groaned "you do not speak to jedi masters in that tone," Master Mundi said "and don't send kids into warzones, don't send people who are sick into warzones, it's basic! YOU'RE MEANT TO BE THE FUCKING WISE ONES! I'm 'a student' yet I know more about being a decent person than the rest of you! AND I'M A POLITICIAN! Stop being ignorant!" I snapped, they were clearly shocked at my outburst, "you don't get it do you?! I'm one of the older padawans! think about the ones who are like 12! you're all adults! you aren't as likely to be as affected by it in the long run!" "Padawan, you have spoken your mind, now please leave," Master Windu ordered.

I walked into where Ahsoka is being treated to find the healer was done, she was just asleep. "Is she alright?" I asked "yes, she just needs some rest, her nutrition levels were dangerously low, much longer without food or sleep then... well we don't want to go there," the healer explained "thank you, should I bring her to her quarters?" I asked "I think that would be best," I nodded and lifted Ahsoka off the medical bed and left.