Laurel

2:26 Laurel

Since being with Basalt and Sky something had been bothering me, I had been thinking on it all morning, until I was midway through chewing a bite of sausage that it hit me. I was just like Auris. Like he had been when he was young. But I had been protected, no one had harmed me, at every turn when I was vulnerable someone had come and kept me safe. I could suddenly see his life, clearly in front of my eyes like a movie. He had been like me, full of magic, and potency, something others would seek to control or crush. I had been lucky, first Damon had protected me, and then one by one I collected my mates in the Fae realm until I was surrounded by those who could keep me safe. Safe from a fate like Auris had suffered. I had overheard Basalt, the dragon telling Sky more about the life they had lived. Before tucking themselves away in the cave.

During my various couplings last night and this morning, I had learned that I was too strong. That I could hurt a dragon. That I could hurt Sky. It had left me devastated. I didn't want to hurt anyone by accident. A willing sub getting paddled is one thing, but accidentally breaking a lover's bone was unthinkable. I knew I hadn't hurt Sky too badly in the moment, But I had still brought him pain he didn't want. I was so glad Basalt had taken the time to work with me on control in difficult situations. If I could keep myself from hurting Sky while I came in a mind breaking orgasm. I felt like I could control myself anywhere. It was another sign that the dragon was a worthy mate for me.

Maybe the man needed me to choose him so he too would know he was worthy. I had seen Auris Basalt with both my beloved Sky and Brydel, he was able to fit in and please both. He also more than pleased me, and I already knew in my heart I had to claim them. But I wanted Auris to admit he could be a better man first. Needing to know he wouldn't revert to his spoiled prince braggart persona if I let him in all the way.

As I contemplated mating the Dragon and how it would be best to go about it, my mind wondered to thoughts of Damon and Delia. I missed my original friends so deeply. I wanted to know if Damon was my mate, I wanted to talk to them about all that had happened. When Sky and Basalt had fucked me while holding me aloft between them I was reminded of my time with Damon and how he had held me in the air fucked me in my room our first night. The satisfaction I felt while I was with him. The regret I felt that I had never had a chance to act or be honest with Delia about my attraction towards her before magic pulled me into another world.

Our table had just finished eating, when there was a knock at the door and a forest green and gold liveried servant arrived saying they had come to pack up our apartment. Brydel took control and managed the logistics, while Sky cuddled with me on a couch, Auris, standing guard in front of us. I leaned into the comfort of Sky's arms and must have fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew Brydel was waking me up saying it was time to move to our new home.

I had been dreaming of how I had accidentally hurt Brydel while we were together, holding him hard enough to leave bruises in his swift healing shifter flesh. How I had been too rough with Sky this morning. How much I had in common with Auris. I could feel it, the ghost of a bond, the guilt he harboured. He never wanted to hurt anyone. He had needed to learn control, just like he was teaching me now. He had no teachers. He only had abusers.

As long as nothing went wrong, I knew I would be claiming the dragon as my own soon. My heart gained another notch of peace at my realization, I knew I still wouldn't be complete. Auris Basalt was another piece in my life puzzle, he also likely wasn't the last. I desperately hoped Damon was also meant to be mine, it would be so nice to incorporate him into my harem. He had loved me first, helped me when I was at my weakest. I longed to see him again. I felt guilty I didn't think about him enough anymore. I also missed Delia, the first true friend I had ever had. Having her here would have been so nice to help break up the wall of testosterone I had become surrounded by.