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Depressive

Josh pov

The feeling hurts, because I'm not scared to tell Mads what im thinking.
I just have absolutely no idea how and what she thinks of me right now, and that's what scares me.

It hurts because if I talk about it and she gets weirded out, it's gonna stay weird and awkward, because im just so sure that if she turns me down, it won't make me lose this feeling, I'll just keep wanting what I can't have even more.

And she won't hang out by me if she know I want her, like bad. And I can't lose Mads, she's important to me, I value our friendship too much to mess it up. I'm not being myself. I'll fix tha-

BANG!

An:yo dude, Bryce wants you downstairs for his vlog, also why the fuck are you just sitting like that not doing anything

Jh:oh, yea I'm just thinking

An:about what?

Why was my face fucking heating up?

Jh:nothing ant

An:nothing or no one?

Jh:no one

An:so someone?

Jh:wait- no fuck you

An:got you there, so who?

Jh:leave me alone Anthony

Third person pov

An:I'm afraid that can't happen, you dug your own grave bro

Jh:listen man you know you're my best friend and everything, so knowing that I can't tell you this bothers me for real, but it's just a very secretive secret

An:alright bro, drama much, I already have an idea who but it might be a reach

Jh:what do you mean?

An:is it mads?

Jh:elaborate on why you think so

An:well she's the last girl you've been with as far as I know, and well, looking at the party videos you seemed pretty smitten by her

Jh:smitten? Who even says that anymore?

An:when you look smitten, you're smitten, can't be denied, what can be denied is you thinking about her, which you haven't done till now

Jh:when did you get all Sherlock Holmes?

An:I'm a smart fella, I'm also a fella who still hasn't heard you denying it, so I'm pretty sure it's mads

Jh:it's not

An:oh but it is my guy

Jh:okay

An:okay? Okay...

Jh:...

An:to make things clear you were thinking about her right?