Bribing Mr Vain Malik (ZMFF) (Completed)

Chapter 12 ~ This Might Work

Zayn and I catch up the next day, he smiles he looks tired, “Concerts fault” he tells me “how did it go?” I ask him “perfect” he says, he wraps me up and kisses me “How’s my beautiful girlfriend?” he asks, I shiver at the word girlfriend, Zayn notices,  “what’s wrong?” he asked his head sitting gently on my head, “Nothing” I lied “It was yesterday wasn’t it?” he asked “No” I lied “didn’t you want to make out?” he asks “I did” I say “but why are you different today?” he protest, “I’m not” I argue “You are” he points out simply “don’t you trust me?” he asks “I want to” I say “well you should trust me Tilly, your so insecure” I push Zayn away “Up down, up down” he says, taking a step back “I am not up, down, up down” I argue “Tilly, don’t lie to me” he says “I love you, its that simple, your going to have to start to believe that, or does it need to be in black and white, or written in blood?” he asks I swallow “Your overreacting, okay, you shouldn’t be feeling like this” he says, “if you didn’t want to go that far yesterday if you didn’t want to stand in your underwear, and in you didn’t want to make out, you shouldn’t have pushed it” “its nothing of that kind” I state “then what is it then?” he asks.

“Yesterday I believed you, today I don’t, yesterday I had a lust to make out, and now parts of me don’t want to see you” I say he is silent, I’m silent, we look at each other “You’re a user Tilly if that’s the way you feel, you tried to use me from the start, and I bet that’s how it will end Tilly, man I shouldn’t have been so dumb” He cries out raged “I’m sorry Zayn” I say “its to late Tilly, I’ve been working at you, working with you, working for you, but now your thrown it at me, thrown it at my face” he looks red, and angry.

“Zayn I have feelings for you, true feelings you” I say “for today, what about tomorrow, what about next week, next month, years from today?” he demands, I’m silent, he looks at me, a softness in his eyes, “I can’t keep this up Tilly, I’m not a yo-yo, I can’t try and try, and get nothing back” he stands still, I stand still. He starts to walk away shaking his head.

I think of quickly what might work, what I could do to show him I love him but just have doubts, I rush up to him, and stand in front of him, “This might work” I say and lean into him, and kiss him gently on the mouth, trying to make it a kiss that means I love you, I need you, but I have doubts help me. The look in Zayn’s eyes afterwards tells me that he got my message. He kisses me softly back.

We go back to my place. We have tea, we talk, and we cuddle. I promise him I’ll try my best not to doubt our relationship or him. He tells me we will work at it together. He smiles, a soft smile, and I know I’m falling in love with him, and I know already he’s fallen in love with me. I know making out the day before, was meant to happen, I know that I love him, and it was worth it, it was right at the time.