Letters to my lover

#3

This time, this letter is written so you know how much I cost. I feel selfish because in my letters, I asked a lot. It was as if my life was that sad, wanting to be pitied, suffering so much that it required so many petty little cares. I admit it. But honestly, my dream is to have someone who values ​​me in a way that makes me feel meaningful. And I dreamed it was realised by a man, which could be you.

My value or other things, cannot be measured by money, time, valuables things, and others. I just mentioned the time. Cool, right? Yes! Because it is that valuable, whatever it is is very valuable, because losing it will be very painful and will not be able to be replaced.

I want someone that when I'm gone, you'll feel lost. Feeling longing is childish, but losing is something of great value to me. I felt like I sounded so longing for someone who adored me. Haha. So cliché and so ridiculous.

But I don't think it's that difficult. Because I've done it several times. And I keep doing it. Even though I find it stupid and ridiculous. But that's how I live. And I wish someone would do the same for me.

What about the people around me? Do they know how valuable I am? Maybe. But I was not easily satisfied. Or maybe not, because I don't feel like it. Why do you think I'm asking this of you?

I did it to so many people, so many that I can't even count them. It's not that I'm not sincere. It's just, to be honest it's tiring, because no matter how often I try to value them, they feel I'm incapable and never succeed. However, to the people closest to me, I am grateful that I feel they know very well that I really fill them. They saw my efforts, they knew very well I didn't want to lose them.

You must know very well this is a very complex feeling. And so do I. It's so funny how I try to explain to you that I don't want to hope, but on the other hand I dream that you respect me. That's what I said earlier, I feel I'm selfish. But I also know that you know why I want you to value me so deeply. That's right?