desire
/dɪˈzʌɪə/
noun
a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.
"he desired sex more than anything"
verb
strongly wish for or want (something).
"he never reached the relationship he so desired"
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It hurts. And it's annoying but somehow I really like that it hurts cause its good pain but... it'sannoying.
Ah, talking bout Sanhwa fucking me, not Yeosang.
The first task to do after waking up was to tell Mingi and Yunho about it. But besides the fact I can barely move, they don't seem to take any interest in me. Getting kinda anxious, I must say, we haven't talked in quite a while.
I also thought about San's and Yeosang's friendship, it totally got damaged... Was it my fault? And then Seongjoong and Jonggi... Is it good we all found each other's true selves or are we rather getting torn apart and destroying every bit of love and friendship we shared?
I'm kind of really thankful to San. If it wasn't for him, I'd be crying over Yeosang still. I sometimes feel like he doesn't only want to fuck me but why would I be more worthy in his eyes? Fine, that's a bit exaggerated. Choi San has definitely changed, maybe even matured.
"A pool party!" Beomgyu's excited yell gets me out of my trance and I look up. Everyone is in the dining room, eating and discussing recent events. Well everyone except the Baron, his servant, and the two others. Nothing too uncommon but Hongjoong also wasn't present.
Hearing that we're gonna get out in less than 8 days was delightful information. However, luckily Yeonjun's birthday was falling on the 13th of September which was only two days from now. With me protectively in San's lap who had been carrying me around the whole day anyway, I listen up. A pool?
"Where the fuck are you gonna get a pool?" Mingi grumbles and Taehyun shot him a quick glare.
"Bad mood?" He asks and I internally agree with the question, Mingi looks fucking pissed. And attractive.
Taehyun gets no answer and he continues, "Well dear guests, we indeed have a pool! It's on the opposite of where you guys entered the castle and pretty much covered by large trees. It's actually an excellent idea..."
"One Problem," Soobin mentions, calming the excited Yeonjun on his lap down, "The pool hasn't been used for over well, 134 years. Or did the others- hold up. DEBORAH!"
Steps are heard and Debo peeks into the hall, Yeonjun's adam's apple bopping up and down from the gulp he made when Soobin shouted. His eyes meet mine, and we share a knowing grin, Yeonjun blushing. Ah, he's the only one who was willing to listen to my last night's events. I love talking to him.
Deborah informs us that no one has used the pool and Soobin sighs, "How are we gonna clean up?"
"What you on!" San's voice comes from behind me and I lean back with a cheeky smile, I like being in his arms, "We are 11 strong men! 13 if we count Eha and Hueningkai."
