shawn's tour diary

city of hate

stella's pov

i woke up gracefully
i went to the wardrobe and picked out an outfit. i had no idea why i was so nervous, this was shawn. my supposed "best friend" and "love interest"

as i was putting my makeup on i heard a knock at the door

"stells.. um. stella?" he said

i put my stuff down and answered

"hey." i said opening the door
"hi" he said
he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me in to a hug

i awkwardly stood there
he finally let go and i went back to the bathroom

"there's water in the fridge" i said

i heard shawn sit down on the couch

shawn's pov

"so how do you like paris." i said loudly from the tv area

"it's pretty." she replied quietly

after she was done getting ready we left her room

i always noticed what she was wearing. jeans, boots, and an army jacket.

as we stepped out the cold air hit my face

"so where is it?" she said beside me as i aimlessly walked

"oh it's down there."
i said leading her

we got a table by the window

i ordered some blueberry pancakes.
the conversations were short and awkward

"hows pickering." i asked smiling

"it's fine i guess. just as you left it." she said nodding

her phone buzzed and she quickly picked it up

a smile came on her face and she typed back

i sat back in my chair

"oh sorry." she said putting her phone down

"it's fine, i mean i haven't seen you in a while, i guess i just figured you'd be happy to see me." i replied

"come on shawn." she said taking her napkin off her lap

"what do you mean come on?" i asked growing frustrated

"you dumped me okay. you broke up with me. you cut me out of your life. okay? so sorry if i don't feel like engaging in conversation with someone who ripped my heart out of my chest." she said whispering

"okay. that's fine. if you can't stand to be with me that much i guess i'll just leave." i said standing up

"shawn! stop making a scene. okay. just sit down." she said under her breath

"what the hell is your problem stella? maybe if you weren't so set on your goddamn phone the whole time, i could actually talk to you about it."

"what's to talk about shawn? i was willing to support you through everything and you just left me in the dust." she said, her eyes getting watery

"i was drunk when i did it okay. i did it by accident. you're the most important pers-"

she laughed, "shut up shawn."

i was beyond confused

"that's just about the worst lie i've ever heard you tell." she said getting up

before i could say anything, she walked out the door, and stormed down the street, wiping her eyes constantly.

i waited for my pancakes to arrive and then left.

i walked back to my hotel, i wanted to talk to stella, but she made it clear the feeling wasn't mutual.

i met a few fans in the lobby, and then rode the elevator up to my room.

tomorrow was my show, and then after that i was leaving paris.

and stella, who would probably stay here for as long as she could.

i didn't expect anything from her anymore. i think i hated myself, for making her hate me

i was up until midnight that night writing about the whole thing, messing around with random guitar chords.

x

the day came. my paris show. somehow when i booked this venue way back, i imagined spending every second of it with stella, and it being very romantic.

it was the complete opposite.

the saddest part was that whenever me and stella fought, we always found our way back to each other, since elementary. but not now..

after the m&g i prepped for the show. the usual routine. vocal warmup, eat, do a few pushups.

then the time came.
i felt the crowd roar my name as i stepped foot on stage

i greeted everyone in the crowd like i usually do, "how are you guys today?" loud screams, i loved them so much.

i sang strings first. it was the most tiring. then air, little too much, something big, never be alone, don't even know your name, and ended with life of the party.

i was high off life after that performance

as i walked off i felt a familiar hand rub my back

"that was incredible" stella said smiling warmly

"stella.. i didn't think you would.." i said surprised

"let's get out of here shall we?" she said motioning to the door

i shrugged and followed her out

xx
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