shawn's tour diary

hurt

a/n
IM BACK!!!!
i'm going to skip listing the tour dates. sorry i've been gone for so long, but i'm gonna be more active.

love u all 💞
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shawn's pov

my phone rang annoyingly
why did i choose that ringtone?

i turned over and looked at the screen, it was a blocked number and it was the middle of the night.

"hello?" i asked rubbing my eyes

"shawn! something happened" i heard the voice of a familiar woman

was it? stella's mom??

"mrs.. gonzales??" i asked confused

"yes. it's stella. she was in a car accident in paris." she said, her voice started to shake

"oh my god.. is she alright?" i said, i felt my heart beating

"i hope. i can't travel all the way to france i have to work and i.." i heard her starting to cry

"it's, it's fine. don't worry, i'll go check on stella in paris okay?" i tried comforting her

"you're on tour hun, i just couldn't.." the crying began again

"no. it's fine okay. i'll just reschedule some shows a few days later. it'll be fine." i replied

"you don't have to do that shawn." she said in a hushed tone

"i have to! and i'll call you and tell you everything okay. i promise. just be strong for stella."

"stella is so lucky to have you shawn. you're an angel." she said sobbing

she didn't know..

"ok. bye." i said hanging up

i talked to my manager and rescheduled a few of my tour dates. it wasn't too much of a big deal, i figured that stella was sort of, a priority.

we took the next plane to paris.

the memories all shot back, i walked on the same streets and saw the same lights and buildings and cars.

we took a taxi to the hospital. my hand involuntarily shook as i tried to sit still.

the whole car crash, to me it just didn't even make any sense. stella didn't even have a car out here.

we arrived at the hospital and i bursted through the doors.

after being called in we went to visit stella.

i tried to pull the door open but my legs wouldn't let me move any closer.

andrew (my manager), tried to motion me to the door, i started to get extremely hot and sweaty, he realized this and continued in the room.

i played with my thumbs, i didn't want to see a girl i had hurt, be hurt anymore.

i had an inch of bravery left in me and i walked in to the room before i could protest.

stella was propped up on the bed. she had various cuts and bruises on her face and a cast on her right arm. there was a huge bandaid placed across her forehead

i instantly started to cry. i couldn't bare to see my best friend that way

"shawn. shawn stop. i'm fine! i'm okay! i promise" she smiled as she rubbed my back

"im so sorry stella. i don't know why i left you.

"what do you mean?"
she asked grabbing hold of my hand

"shawn? can we step outside real quick?" the doctor said to me from across the room

"yeah.. sure." i slowly let go of stella's hand and followed him out

"the car accident was pretty harsh." he said, his accent was thick but i heard him very clearly

"is she gonna be okay?" i asked, i felt my pulse speeding up

"yeah, she'll be fine, the only thing is, she has a bit of memory loss." he said nodding

"as long as nothing drastic happened in the last, i would say, three weeks, it'll be fine."

"ok.." i said, my mind started to drift off

"you're her boyfriend right?" he said opening the door back up

"well.. that's what seems to be the case, huh?"