shawn's tour diary

familiar

shawn's pov

i grabbed stella by the hand and smiled. i wasn't really sure what to say.

me and stella had problems. we weren't perfect, but maybe this was the universe's way of telling us we belong together..

is it totally fucked up of me to use the opportunity to act like nothing had even happened?

she looked gorgeous, even with no makeup on and a ton of scars and blood stains.

i stared at her features.
that little cute nose, that i would kiss and squeeze. her eyes, always bright and pretty, even in the worse situations. and her lips, full yet small, i could stare at her lips while she talked for hours.

i planted a quick kiss on her forehead

"ouch" she said quietly

"sorry. babe" i replied

babe? really?

"it's fine. are you gonna come see me tomorrow?" she said squeezing my hand

"of course." i nodded

i said goodbye to everyone and left the hospital.

i felt myself get sweaty. was it wrong to pretend we were a couple? am i being a jerk??

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the next morning

i woke up and headed straight to the hotel. we stopped to get some flowers at a gas station nearby.

when i got to the hospital, the waiting room was crowded.

i managed to find a seat, i shook my leg nervously and after 45 minutes, i was finally let in.

stella greeted me with a warm smile, no one else was in the room except for her.

"there he is!" she said excitedly

"hey there. how are you feeling?" i said placing the flowers down

"woah, those are gorgeous. thank you, and i'm fine, i mean besides the broken bones and stuff, i'm alive so that's great."

"that is great." i whispered, leaning in for a kiss

our lips locked, the touch of her kiss was so foreign yet so familiar.

she pulled my hair and whispered in my ear, "i love you shawn."

before i could respond the door creaked and someone walked in

i quickly stood up and tried to act "casual" even though, they probably had just seen us making out.

i saw a familiar face that i didn't want to believe.

"shawn?"

it was richard.

"what the hell are you doing here?" i said raising my voice

"woah woah woah. calm down buddy. i'm just visiting my girlfriend who was in a wreck." he said raising his hands

"well get out of this room, you cant just barge in." i said back in a hushed tone

"why would i get out? this is my girlfriend!" he said pointing to stella

my heart sunk

"no it's not? i'm dating stella!" i said, i felt my neck vein popping out

"since when?? me and her just started going out before the car accident." he said in a chill tone

"stop messing with me richard, get out of here." i said, hoping stella was too tired to catch on

"are you saying that, stella is the girl that you use to constantly go on and on about?"

richard ran past me towards stella

"you know who i am right, princess?" he said kissing her cheek

"i'm sorry.. i don't think so" she replied confused

"she has memory loss you dumb shit" i whispered

"you're fucking telling her you guys are still together huh?" he pushed me against a wall

"i have to. i don't wanna make things complicated for her." i said breathing heavily, yet trying to stay quiet

he backed away and walked out the door

"shawn, what was that?" stella asked

"don't worry about it alright?" i said grabbing hold of her hand