shawn's tour diary

kisses

shawn's pov

stella led me out in to the streets, her hand wrapped tightly around my wrist

"where are we going?" i asked confused

she didn't reply, and then we went up to the doors of our hotel, and entered.

she pressed the elevator button and we got in.

"what's going on stella?" i laughed

"nothing okay." she smiled

"tell me" i said playfully

she let go of my wrist and then put my hand by her lips

she left little kisses all over it

"nothing nothing nothing" she said in between kisses

"stella..." i groaned

"let's go." she said pulling me out of the elevator

"what's going on?" i asked confused, enjoying myself, yet confused

she led me to her room and unlocked the door

she led me to the bed and pushed me down on it

"stella?" i asked

"i'm so proud of you baby boy.." she said kissing my neck

"stella!" i said squirming

"you're so talented." she said playing with my hair

i stood up

"what's going on? i thought that you hated me?" i asked

"i was wrong." she said shrugging

i wrinkled my nose

"baby just let me love you okay, questions later." she said pouting

"stella-"

"shawn i'm serious shut up and come make out with me"

how could i say no to that.

i sat beside her on the bed.
grasping her outer thigh and head i left soft kisses on her lips

our lips danced in harmony

she let out a cute little moan

she began swirling her tongue around my mouth, yet continuing with soft slow kisses

i pushed her down on the bed and you know how the rest of the story goes

xx

i woke up with a stinging on my neck
i moved my fingers over it, and felt a burning feeling, a hickie. great.

i looked over at stella who was sound asleep

"stells." i said turning her over

she woke up, her eyes fluttering open
"oh hey shawn"

i grabbed her hand and slowly kissed it

she pulled it away

"what?" i said accidentally out loud

she got out of bed and started to change

"get out of my bed?" she asked sarcastically

"oh my bad." i said standing up

i realized i was wearing my boxers

she threw my clothes at me

"so breakfast?" i said while changing

"no thanks."

"what's going on stella?" i asked zipping up my pants

"first you're all over me, then there you go again, pushing me away."

"all we did was hook up shawn, it's not like we said our vows" she said sipping coffee

"that's all it was to you..." i said becoming angry

"you hurt me. and this wasn't really hurting you. it was fun for both of us" she smiled

"i-"

"listen. no hard feelings okay. i actually feel a lot better after this. i'm not mad anymore. you shouldn't be mad because you broke my heart. we can continue on how we were before."
she said leaving the room

i didn't want to continue on how we were before. i wanted her to be mine. goddamn it!

i knocked one of the vases over

she always liked to play games. tease me. be "hard to get"

i left her room and went to mine to pack up

after a few hours, we got back on the bus

i acted like nothing happened but i felt empty in the inside

i saw ian, after what felt like a long while, even though he was here the whole time

"hey shawn." he said patting me on the back

"OH MY GOD YOU DID NOT" he said pointing at my neck

"oh that's.." i said using my sweatshirt to cover it up

"that's what?" he laughed sitting back

"i just got burned, by the stove you know.." i said, sometimes i sucked at lying

"who was it?" he said with big eyes

"a fan? no tell me it wasn't a fan." he said covering his mouth

"no. it was stella."

"you and stella-"

"cooked some dinner yeah." i laughed

"what? i thought that" he asked

"yeah well we're still not together" i said shaking my head

"a casual hookup? that's not you." he replied

"exactly." i sighed

"just move on. she's not for you."

i nodded

"cmon lets go play some video games, i feel like i haven't seen you in years."

stella's pov

i felt bad for doing that to shawn. he was so genuine and sweet.

but after the things he put me through, it was hard to tell why i shouldn't do it.

our relationship was far too complicated. i had already moved on to someone else.

"babe!" he said a few feet away from me

"hey!" i smiled

he embraced me, my head fit perfectly in his chest

our fingers intertwined

"how are you?" he asked

"i'm great.. now that you're here. how was the flight?" i replied

"long. but it was worth it. let's go eat, i'm starving."

"i know this cute cafe with the best blueberry pancakes." i smiled