shawn's tour diary

top of the world

shawn's pov

after i got ready i went to the venue to rehearse before the show started.

i couldn't get in to the music. something felt wrong. no matter how excited i was for this show, i still felt kind of empty inside.

richard ran on stage. richard was one of those kids who had connections through the music industry, but nobody had a clue why.

i met him when i went on tour with austin & fifth harmony, he introduced himself as lauren's boyfriend, even though according to her, he wasn't allowed within a set number of feet from her.

he was pretty cool i guess. being on tour gets lonely, and hanging out with a bunch of adults isn't always fun.

"why the sad face." richard said patting my back.

i lowered my guitar, "get out of here man, this is my dress rehearsal."

"lighten up. you gonna be at the party tonight right?"

"wow, i'm on tour, i don't know if i have enough time to go to a party" i replied.

i regretted sounding so rude but he never thought about things twice.

"see you at the party then." he said laughing

i went backstage to talk to my publicist. and eventually, showtime came.

i got so pumped before getting on stage, and in the spur of the moment, i texted stella.

[i'm about to go on stage. wherever you are, just think of me.]

they cued me to go on stage and i ran on.

seeing so many fans and little flashlights made me so happy. i could barely stop smiling to talk.

"hey. i'm shawn.." i said quietly in to the mic.

loud roaring, why did they love that so much, i sounded like a complete loser.

"i love you guys a ton, this song is for you."

i knew who the song was really for.

i sang my heart out the next two hours. i felt like i was on the top of the world.

until i got off stage. i picked up my phone from the spot i dropped it.

no reply from stella.

what was even going on? what game is she trying to play? doesn't she know i love her?

"great show, lets get going, before it gets crowded." richard said grabbing his bag

"i can't, i said."

"shawn, great show." ian smiled as he walked up to me.

"no, it wasn't great. it was awful. i did terrible. everyone was so disappointed" i said turning around

"shawn calm down." ian said calmly.

"yeah what's your problem." richard said confused

"leave me alone." i said walking away

"the party?" richard said as i walked away

something hit me and i turned around,
"let's go."

"a party? what?" ian said following after us

"you can come too!" richard said giving him a high five

"we probably shouldn't-

"but why not right, shawn looks like he needs it." ian said smiling