For You,' |SparklingHerb Smut-Angst|

🌱 Broken Ties 🌱

This book may contain the following: cussing/swearing, suicidal language, mentioning of the use of drugs or other chemicals, abuse, and mentioning of rape. If any of these things cause you disturbance or cringe, you are welcome to leave. Thank you!

'Herb POV '

Everything was a blur. I was so busy these days that I rarely even got any chance to think about what happened that day. I nicknamed the creepy guy "Drunk-ass Pedo", so if you hear me referring to that you know what it means.

Why am I so busy? Remember the phone call? Yeah. My mom's coming to visit me. It's pretty rare to see her actually like traveling, so this is the first time in a few years of me seeing her. To be honest, I don't even remember her face that well...

I'm trying to make a bouquet of flowers of different shapes and sizes. I have a lot of different plants in my house but not nearly enough to make a bouquet. So I searched high and low from store to store, by the time I got home, I was exhausted. I think I know why Mom hates traveling now.

I got home, and started placing each individual flower in the bouquet. I love making them because they always turn out so pretty when you're done! 

I sighed. Oh- it was with happiness! Even though I'm tired, I did this all for Mom. I love her so much, so it only makes sense if I worked hard to prepare her a gift. I laughed at the thought of her reaction. 

Suddenly, my phone got a notification. I set down the bouquet and picked it up. It was Mom.

(Mom 🫶 Fairy)

11:23

Herb, are you free to talk right now?

Yes Mom, ofc, why?

I'm so excited for you to come by the way!

I was thinking of doing these things:

Shopping,

Ice skating,

Herb! Listen to me. I'm very sorry, but my visit will have to be delayed.

I'm afraid work matters seem to be out of hand. My boss told me I'd have to work overtime if I want to keep my job. I'll make it up to you.

I promise.

Herb?

11:45

Haha, I understand!

No worries Mom, come visit anytime. Take care of yourself ok?

I will, but Herb.. will you be ok? Do you want to video call some time?

Herb?

Herb are you there?

I silently closed my phone and turned the power off; my hands felt weak

...

My knees gave in to the ground. I could feel tears bulging from the edge of my eyes/

I should've known that she would cancel last minute. In her eyes, work is more important than any aspect. I'm only second in her priorities. I wiped my hands across my face, a lump forming in my throat. 

Three years.

Alone.