Flip Side of Love

Chapter 24

'Huh, I knew it. I frickin' called it, Geoffrey has to give you $250 cause I won the bet. He told me you would be fine, and I told him,'Nuh uh I know my husband; he'll spiral out of control faster than you can say "I'm sorry."'

Truth be told, I'm a little disappointed Christopher. I mean, you did promise me you would be strong. But I guess that was a little unfair of me to make you promise. Cause if we're being honest, I probably would have cracked under the pressure if the situations were reversed. In the all the books I've and thing I've watched, they always have this moment of clarity; this moment of acceptance. That never happened for me. I̶'m̶ w̶r̶i̶t̶i̶n̶g̶ w̶i̶t̶h̶ a̶ h̶e̶a̶v̶y̶ h̶e̶a̶r̶t̶, b̶e̶c̶a̶u̶s̶e̶ t̶h̶e̶r̶e̶'s̶ s̶o̶ m̶u̶c̶h̶ 
Anyway, I've got three things I want to lay out to you so here goes:

1. I'm sorry - I know we said forever, but I kinda screwed that one up didn't I?

2. It wasn't your fault - You're probably beating yourself up, broken promises and all. But when you think about it, I broke a promise too, and I broke it first. I mean we did say forever right? So don't beat yourself over you not being able to take me home. And I don't want you spewing out any self-righteous nonsense okay? You may not know this but you're actually stronger than me (I can finally admit that now). You want to know why? Because, you'll make it through this.

3. Be happy - And I'm not saying go out and find yourself someone new, because you know me, jealous to my very core. I mean if you do find somebody kudos to you, but you don't have to if you don't want to. Whatever makes you happy is what I'm trying to say. "How can I do that?" (Yeah, I can hear you whining loud and clear) I have no idea, that's for you to figure out, it ain't my problem, just do it okay?

I'm terrified you know, not of my future, but of yours. So, I've enlisted the help of a few of our friends; Austin, Amelia, Geoffry and Taylor being the main ones. They've been given strict orders to bug the hell out of you, so you're welcome. Geoffry has been told to give you this letter when you start being difficult, so I can tell you off. You're all about making me happy right? Well I've got some ways for you to make me happy. Embrace our friends and don't shut them out, cry me river cause I love me a sensitive man >_0 (but seriously if you need to cry, then cry), go to the gym and punch something if you feel angry, flip our photos the right way over cause that's just rude (also, I'm a little sadist and I want you to be surrounded by my happy face), talk about me because I know you think it would have been better if our situations had been reversed, make frivolous purchases now and then cause I'm not there to spend your money, keep this letter and read it until you've memorised it.

Please... just please, don't forget me (sorry about the tearstain)

There's so much I want to tell you and not enough time. Life isn't fair Christopher and you drew the short end of the stick falling in love with me, but it's too late now. Just, make sure you hold a place for me in your heart whilst leaving it wide open.

Oh and Christopher,

I love you xxx'