Anxiety | Harry Styles

Chapter 14: "when I feel his arm around me"

"Hunter" "hunterrrrrrrrrr" "psssssst hunter" I hear vaguely and feel a warm hand shaking me lightly.

I force my eyes open not wanting to face the reality that this plane is going to be landing soon, and while that does make me happy all I can think about is what can go wrong during a landing.

"we're already here?"

"5 hours goes by fast when you're sleeping" he says

I feel kind of bad for sleeping the whole way, but really if you think about it- it was the best thing for everyone as I was an anxious mess when we took off.

The landing went fine as it always does, and Harry and I make our way off the plane. This whole thing was such a weird experience for me because I don't fly much and when I do it's definitely not in a charter plane. As we get off the plane I notice something very odd, there's a grey truck parked with a blacked out car beside it. As we walk down the planes stairs I'm led into the front seat of the truck, as Harry jumps into the drivers seat.

"Once I get into the city and I'm not with the boys the team leaves me alone." Harry's says as he sees the slight confusion on my face.

Harry starts the truck and we're on our way, of course I have no clue where we're going but I trust Harry and assume he has a plan.

You always here that Los Angeles has horrible traffic and it takes forever to get anywhere but it's really an understatement, I don't know how long we've been on this highway but it seems like forever! It was nice though, it was nice to just sit there and look at everything, I was completely lost in my thoughts and curiosity.
"You alright over there?" Harry asks as I snap out of my daze
"Oh yeah. Fine, just amazed. I never thought I'd end up here" Harry laughs at my amazement.

Finally after what seemed like an eternity we were off the highway and in a part of LA that is very secluded, you'd almost think we were in a different city. There were so many trees and it was all hills and it was gorgeous. I'm starting to see houses every so often, they're very big and very secure houses. I quickly realize that we're 100% going to his house. The thought of going to his house isn't scaring me but I'm getting slightly intimidated, don't get me wrong I've been talking to Harry for a while but sometimes I forget about him being famous and when I remember it makes me nervous, you know? Sometimes the reality of all this comes flooding back and it can't even comprehend the fact that I know and am friends with someone so well known.

We pull up to a series of gates and I know exactly where I am. I try to be polite and not be too nosy about his security info. There were two gates one on the main road and one down a road that lead to the house, the amount of security this boy needs just to live is crazy.

"Home sweet home" Says Harry, I can tell straight away that he relaxed he hasn't been on edge but I can tell the comfort of his home makes him a little more relaxed.

Harry and I get all our bags and head into his house. I can't even imagine ever stepping in a house this night let alone knowing someone that owns one! It wasn't over the top but it was big for a single 20 year old. It was a typical LA home with lots of huge windows that have gorgeous views. The furniture was modern but still practical, honestly I love it.
"So this is your room while you're here! Harry says as helps me with my bags.
The rooms is gorgeous very simple bed and things and an attached bathroom. I walk over to the windows and take in the view. I don't think things could get better then this.
"Thank you so much. This is amazing" I say in awe as I sit on the end of the bed
"It's okay. It's nice to have company, so thank you for coming" he said as he joined me on the edge of the end.

We found ourselves talking for the longest time, we were just sat on the bed and caught up on things and just talked. It was nice to have a talk with him without involving any sort of electronic. Apparently the boys are recording their fourth album pretty soon, so he's pretty excited about that.

"I'll be right back, I've just got to ring mum" Harry says as he walks out the door. I figured he was going to be gone for a little so I got comfy in the bed and waited for him to get back.

I hear my phone ding in the distance, or what seems like distance. I slowly open my eyes and realize that I passed out. It was dark out, so I had no clue what time it was. All I knew is that I was feeling really home sick. Don't get me wrong I really wanted to be here but the reality of where I was- was sinking in and giving me a lot of anxiety.
I sit up and hang my feet over the aide of the bed and slowly put my feet on the cool ground. Harry didn't show me all of his house yet, so hopefully I'll find my way around. I walk to the end of the hall where there is a room with double doors, I peek my head in and see that it's Harry's room, go figure it's the biggest room I've ever seen! My home sickness rushes over me and I quietly walk in, I don't know what I'm doing but I get into his bed and hope he's okay with it. He stirs a little, but my worries are put to rest when I feel his arm around me. I can feel my body relax instantly and find myself drifting off.