Anxiety | Harry Styles

Chapter 4: "this sounds cheeky"

"hello?"

"hiya! I'm Harry! You okay? " he says pulling me in for a hug.

 "i'm great and yourself? it's great meeting you under better circumstances. ahha"

"that's great. and I'm great. want to sit down. I kind of want to talk before I get the other boys in here to meet ya" he says pointing towards the mini living room area of his hotel room.

'that'd be great" i say as we both take a seat on the couch.

"Why am I here? aha sorry to be so forward. I just don't want this to be a pity party for the girl that got overwhelmed in front of the worlds most famous boy bad" I say. I can feel my cheeks heating up with embarrassment realizing I went on a bit of a ramble.

"I don't know honestly. I just enjoyed your attitude, and I also wanted you to get a better experience out of meeting us. I really love to give back to the fans and your meet and greet didn't go as well as you thought. And you didn't freak out as much as most girls, so I thought it was pretty safe bringing you over here and getting to hang out with us. We're good guys and I just felt you needed a better memory of us" he said with a really soft smile.

"oh. I have to say that's very against your reputation. You're world famous, shouldn't you all be pricks or something? aha" I say with a tone of sarcasm.

"well aren't you cheeky. aha so tell me. I know we all suffer from some sort of anxiety, but I'm actually really curious as to what happened. that is if you don't mind" he asks.

"oh yeah sure. Well I have general anxiety disorder, in the most simple way of explaining it; I just feel nervous about anything and everything. It could be buy groceries or doing really any daily activity and I just get nervous, worked up and overwhelmed over it. Because of it, it forces me to need to know everything. I need to know what I'm doing specifically so I can prepare myself for what i'm going to be around. And in the situation tonight, there were just a lot of people. Most people just live life and no think about how many people there will be, or just the stupid little detailsthat someone with anxiety thinks about. So all the girls and the fact that all those girls were nervous to meet you guys and it was a ton of people so close together I just couldn't think and breathe..........and I'm sorry. ahaha I'm rambling" I say hearing my voice shake feeling nervous, feeling like he's judging me.

"you're fine. ahah I like hearing about something other than having to do with my life or One Direction. but you’re okay now are you? he asks

“oh yeah I’m fine. thank you for asking. what happened tonight is something that doesn’t happen very often and when it does I never have a need to make a scene, but I guess running away from the biggest boyband ever creates a little attention. But yes, i promise I’m fine and doing great. I just want to have a good time and really remember this. Im also hoping to see how you guys have fun in a hotel. ahah” i say cheekily and trying to make good conversation.

“good! and you just wait me and the boys know how to have fun. it helps that we have this whole floor and their rooms to mess about with” he says lighting up with excitement.

“lets go meet the boys!” he says getting up and lighting pulling me up by my wrist.

“okay you stand here. and I stand here. and lets race to the very end of the hallway” he says so excited.

“1, 2, 3-go!!!!!!!” he says and I bolt off running. I don’t want to brag but when I’m really into it and it isn’t for miles I can run really fast. But he is taller and probably in better shape than me.

“WOOOOOOOOOO GO RANDOM GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!” i hear an irish accent behind me and smile as it gave me a little confidence.

“HA!” he says as we get to the end of the hall. He beat me. We start laughing huffing and puffing.

“ this time! I’ll beat you one day!” “uh wait… I mean that implying that come figuratively because when am I ever going to see you again. and uh yeah jsut nevermind” I say stuttering and feeling slightly embarrassed.

“I get what you meant. ahah” he says putting his arm over my shoulders and walking down the the room with all the boys.

“hi” I say kind of shyly to all the boys

“hi” “hey!” “hiya babe” “heey!” they all said with a warm welcome and each one of them opening their arms waiting for a hug. I go down the line and hug each one of them and say hi to each one.

“You okay?” louis asks

“great. excited to get to know you all!” i say happily

“I hope what happened to you tonight wasn’t because of us. I’d feel bad. ahah” says liam

“Oh no it wasn’t you guys. and I’m so embarrassed that had happened. There was just too many people. But Im fine. but how are you guys? tell me what do the boys of one direction do when they finish a concert?” I reply

“well normally we just hang around, chill out, its tiring so we’re pretty keen on just having a chill” says liam

“well if you guys just want to chill, I might have an idea?” I say cheekily

“this sounds cheeky but I’d like to hear” says louis

“welllll there’s a movie theatre in the mall right over there. so if you guys want to chill we can dress you guys in things to disguise you and go see a movie? We can just buy tickets online so most we’d have to do it just hand them to the person and bolt into the theatre room. What do you guys say?” I say hoping that they want to do it and I’m not embarrassed

“I like the way you think!” says louis.

“im guessing that’s a yes?” I ask

“of course darling!” he replies

“we don’t get do go out and do these things much and when we do it’s pretty lame” says liam.

We go back to each one of their rooms and all decide and what each one of them is going to wear. It was kind of challenging because how do you change someone to the point that they look different. It was almost weird for me because we kind of put them in the opposite of what each one would wear.

Harry was wearing his hair in a bun, an oversized hoodie with normal jeans and some fake glasses. Liam was wearing a baseball cap, with a hoodie and the hood up. Louis was wearing a beanie then we put a huge oversized circle scarf on his. Niall was hard but we just put him in things harry would wear and then put sunglasses on him. We knew it was hard but we didn’t have a choice. Then we put Zayn’s hair flat, put a beanie on him, and fake glasses and then put him in a hoodie and jeans. If someone were to put two and two together they could probably figure out who they were, but the boys said that they’d have their security team close by just in case.

We all piled into a suburban type vehicle in a covered parking garage and got driven to the closest mall entrance just to be safe. We all decided that we’ll see 22 Jump Street. We figure it’s a safe bet, we’re all 18 to 22 and the first one was hilarious. We hand the tickets to the young kid, which was lucky for us because if it was a young woman I think she’d realize that was going on. We all kind of bolt into the auditorium and decide to sit at the very back that way no one will be looking down at us and have chance to blow their cover. I was sat next to Harry and Niall, which I was pretty excited about because Niall is seriously funny and I can’t wait to hear him laugh the whole time.

A/N:

I wanted to apologize for shortish chapters? I read some fanfics and they have like 4,5 pages. When writing them they seemed to get too lengthy, but then putting them onto wattpad i've realized they're short compared to some. So give me some feedback on whether they need to be longer or they're fine this way. Thank you! -H