Anxiety | Harry Styles

Chapter 3: "this is Harry's room"

I got a little nervous seeing the amount of people that are crowding into the arena, but i know i'll be fine. I have my seat and my best friend next to me, all will be fine. 5sos came out and they were great. it was nice to see a onces youtube band open up for such a huge boyband. I was also happy that the crowd enjoyed them, nothing worse than an opening band that no one really cares for.

"thank you so much! you guys have been great! can't wait to come back!" one of the 5sos band members say.

"next is one direction!!!!!!!!" raegan says getting so excited.

"im really excited to see what they do! they're always so funny!" i say

It's true. You will probably never go to a more entertaining show. I've watch so many youtube videos of certain songs and they're just so silly. they dont do that choreographed boyband shit they look like they just have fun, they mess about and swear and act inappropriate they show how true 20-23 year olds act when put in band with their best friends. They sure didn't waste any time. They're opening was them coming out and getting straight into the song Midnight Memories, which was good because everyone was so excited if they came out and said something I don't think anyone would hear them.

"how is everyone tonighttttttttttt" says liam the screaming coming from the crowd was probably a good indication that we were all doing great. You can just see all their faces light up when they realize how many people are here for them.

"they look so fucking hot!" raegan shouts into my ear

"RIGHT" i shout back

For the next 90 minutes they put on one of the best performances I've ever see. They don't just perform the same thing for every city, they change it up and since they mess around things happen and it's all good fun. At one point someone did something and the boys were just laughing and could hardly get through the song. it was just amazing and I couldn't have asked for a better show.

Although it did start off rocky it ended very well. Raegan and I wanted to avoid the mass hysteria that would ensue after the concert of tons of people trying to get out so we bolted out, running up the stairs and getting out of the crowds as quick as possible. Getting out of the arena was actually more needed than I thought. It was so nice to be able to breathe.

We run to my car in the parking lot as fast as we can, the area could fit probably 13,000 and I wanted to avoid that as much as possible. We get to my car and we get out of that mini traffic jam as it was about to be a full on horror show.

*vibrate* *vibrate* my phone goes off on my lap. I figured it was probably just someone tweeting and the notification being sent to my phone.

"that was seriously one of the best performances ever. I loved that they just messed around and had actual fun. and didn't act like robots." i say happily

"right! it was nice to see them act like most young guys would act in a band of their best friends. it was great" she replies. I check my phone at a red light just incase it was something other than a twitter notification. I can't believe my eyes when I see what just happened.

DM from @harrystyles: "would you like to hang out with the boys and I on one of the busses? I feel like we could at least to that for you after what I heard happened" I read. I couldn't believe it, why was he doing this? He doesn't own me anything, they didn't even do anything wrong. fdlsakfjdsafj;ldsfads is exactly how I was feeling.

"what's with the goofy grin on your face" raegan asks suspiciously.

"I'm just happy. Happy that we went together. Thanks. it was really fun."

"no thank you! i'm glad you came. it was a rocky start, but it ended up being really fun" she says We come to another red light and I decide to reply.

"that'd be great. I'm just dropping off my friend, so is there a place we could meet up? I assume you guys try to get out and away from the venues asap.. ahah" I think I'll have to tell Raegan that I'm just going to go home. I don't like lying to her, but I just don't want rumors going around and I just don't think it's anyone's business, right now. It's not that I don't trust her, I just want to be careful.

"hey I think I'm just going to go home. I'm feeling pretty drained from everything. I hope that's okay" I say hoping she doesn't catch on.

"yeah no. that's fine. I'll see you sometimes this week, yeah?"

"of course. I'll text you later! byeee!" I say as she's walking to her door.

I have a new DM from harry. "no problem. we're staying at the Westin downtown, so just go there and let the receptionist know you're here to see me and show her your ID.... security reasons. x"

*20 minutes later*

This place is so fancy. I probably look so stupid walking into this 4 star hotel looking like I so don't belong. I walk up to the receptionist and let her know I'm here to see Harry and I also hand her my ID. It was kind of weird because I could tell she was comparing my to my ID then the ID to another photo on her monitor, but I didn't question it.

"someone will be here to escort you up to their floor" she says nicely.

No more than a minute later a man on the boys' security team gets me into the elevator and escorts me up to their floor. My mind is running a million miles a minute right now and I don't even know what to think of it. What was i even going to say to them?! I mostly don't understand why i'm here. I had a panic attack in front of them, it wasn't because them. I just happened. I hope this isn't because they feel pitiful of me. I'm not broken and I hope they'll understand that.

"this is harrys room, just walk on in and he should be here. You have any issues you can come find me" he says

well this is it. here goes nothing.