Anxiety | Harry Styles

Chapter 10: "I can't wait to see my best friend"

A/N: I wrote this chapter on my phone, so sorry about any spelling errors. Enjoy! - Hunt

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Raegan had left not to long ago. I would've let her stay over, but all I could think about was Harry and how eager I was to talk to him. I don't want to turn it into a big ordeal, but I really wanted to clear some things up. I look over to the clock by the TV and realize it's getting later, Harry's on the east coast so he shouldve finished about an hour ago. I was getting anxious as this point, so I get up to get a drink. As I make my way to the kitchen almost like he knew my phone starts riding from across the room and I make a dash for it.

hunter: "hello?"

harry: "helloooo, how are you?"

hunter: "pretty good....I guess" Even I mentally laughed at that reply because the obvious lack of confidence with that response was clear as day.

harry: "so what is it that you wanted to talk about?"

hunter: "I don't want to make this dramatic or anything, but I mostly just wanted to say that we can stop talking for real if that's what you want. My anxiety isn't a joke and I'd realized that why go through all this trouble to accommodate me and my anxiety when you don't need too. there are plenty of people out there more worth the time and effort. I just don't want you to feel any need to talk to me. Even I get sick of myself and my stupid anxieties so I can't imagine asking someone to put up with it. I'm rambling now....." I mentally shove my foot in my mouth because before it was too late I'd realized that Harry had just become victim of my word vomit. Everything on my my mind came spewing out of my mouth at rapid fire speed before my lips could stop anything.

harry: "love, don't think you're anything less than anyone else. We all have our problems, and you being effected by anxiety is nothing worse than celebrities with big egos. I get on with them in a certain way and I'll get on with you in a certain way. I have to be private about a lot of my life and you're no different, your anxiety gives me a reason to be more private so don't worry. If I didn't want to be doing this we wouldn't be talking."

hunter: "I'm sorry. I just really needed to know where you stand. I was talking to Raegan and I realized that you didn't have to go through all this, and I wanted to make sure you weren't doing anything out of pity. Anxiety is a serious thing that effects everything I do and I wouldn't willingly make someone put up with it if they didn't have to" 

harry: "well you've got nothing to worry about, okay? The way I see it you have to get to know single thing about someone and learn to understand their personality and how to get on with them. I'll treat it like I would any other quirk, I'll learn to understand it and help you out." 

hunter: "if you know something that big and personal about me, that just means you'll have to tell me all your deep dark secrets? ahha" 

harry: "only if I can hear a few of yours" 

hunter: "I think that's fair."

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The next hour was spent talking about anything and everything that effected our life at this point in time. Every time we talk I become more and more astonished by how normal he is and how he has problems just like the rest of us. He's actually very smart when you get to know him the way he talks and the way he puts his thoughts into words. Looking at the clock it was a little after midnight so I only knew it was really late there.

"it's really late there. text me when you're awake." I said with a slight said tone in my voice, I knew we had to get off the phone but that doesn't mean that I didn't want to talk to him all night long.

"alright love. I'll talk to you tomorrow, goodnight hunter" he replies in his raspy voice

"goodnight harry"

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HARRY POV

You know that feeling you get when you're completely content with life? Very few things can beat that feeling. I won't lie and say that I didn't want anything to happen with Hunter, because let's all be honest she was a looker, and just a really down to earth girl when you get to know her. But at this very moment I feel almost proud with how Hunter and I are getting on. We've all see gossip website about me and I will admit that I can be very casual when it comes to relationships with girls and I also will admit that I have had quite a few intimate relationships of the casual variety, if you get what I mean. But to actually start a relationship with a girl in the correct why, as in getting to know each other before jumping into anything made me feel really good.

Don't get me wrong, I don't regret any causal relationships, but as I'm 20 and more than half the band is in committed relationships kind of open my eyes to possibly wanting one. But id never admit that to one of the guys. I have to keep my image of a go-with-the-flow kind of guy.

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HUNTER POV

*THREE AND A HALF MONTHS LATER*

A lot can happen in a short amount of time. Harry and I have never been closer, we're nothing more than friends but at this point we talk so often and are so close I'd easily consider him my best friend. We talk whenever we get the chance and its become so excessive that I'm really close with the whole band. I couldn't even tell you how it happened, after facetiming and calling so much that doing it in private got to be harder and harder and the boys just slowly started talking to me and now we're all pretty close.

The plan Harry and I made when we first started talking worked out perfectly.  I still had a lot of directioners following me on twitter and Instagram but the rumors stopped pretty quickly when things between us went quick. I was so thankful, its been nice to get to know Harry as Harry and not the Harry that's somewhat censored in a sense because he's watched by the world.

The boys' tour was ending tomorrow and as much as I'm happy for them, I know how exhausted they are and I know I sound selfish but I can't wait for Harry to have more free time. We've become used to working around the tour schedule but it'll be nice to call or text whenever I want.

Liam is one of the boys that I've grown really close in a brotherly way. I've really become to value is opinion on many things. Its also really nice because we're strictly friends with 110% of nothing more, we can talk about anything even boys. Speaking of Liam, he said he needed to talk to me as soon as possible. I have no clue what for but I should really call him.

Liam: "Hey babe"

Hunter: "Hey! how are you?"

Liam: "I'm great love. and how are you?"

Hunter: "really good! enjoying my day off. so what is it that you wanted to talk to me about? I hope it's nothing bad...."

Liam: "noooo, nothing bad the complete opposite actually. So as you know the last tour date of the where we are your is tomorrow in Miami. On behalf of us 4 boys can we fly you out here tomorrow for the last show to surprise Harry?"

What. Just. Happened. I haven't seen Harry in months when I first met him. I couldn't even comprehend what I just heard.

Hunter: "WHAT"

Liam: "aha we'll fly you out tomorrow before the show, hide you out a hotel until it starts then surprise him"

Hunter: "I don't even know what to say. I would love that. I don't know how I could ever repay you guys. I can't wait to see my best friend"

Liam: "don't worry about it. We thought you'd feel that way. Not to mention ALL of us want to see you so its a win win for everyone.

Hunter: " I can't even believe this. thank you so much"

Liam: "you better believe it! Now go pack! Work has already been taken care of, so pack enough for 2 weeks! I'll email you all the info, but a charter jet will be at the airport for you with a small team. I'll talk to you later love!"

Hunter: "thank you thank you thank you. Talk to you later! Bye!"

Liam: "Bye!"

My brain felt like mush there was such a rush of emotions. I know I've met him before, but I feel like Im meeting a whole new Harry. The Harry I've come to know has made me feel every emotion. We've talked about everything and anything. The thought of meeting someone you've told so much to, and has told so much is a surreal feeling and I cannot wrap my mind around it.