Anxiety | Harry Styles

Chapter 9: "she better not have hurt our haz"

"she just used him" 

" I wonder what she did" 

"he deserves better anyway" 

Harry had unfollowed me from everything not even an hour ago and everyone is putting their 2 cents in. I know that this was only for his privacy and It wasn't "for real" but seeing it all really offended me. All my interactions were girls asking me what's going on, there wasn't much hate directed toward me, but typing my name into twitter search it was clear that alot of directioners weren't happy. I just remembered what he had said, they'll forget in a week. I kept telling myself that and got off my computer. 

I was laying down on my couch and forgetting about a whole bunch of young girls and women say things about you is the weirdest feeling ever. You see hate about celebrities all the time, but when it's about you it's a whole new feeling. One half of me was really defensive and wanted to blow up and tell them that he has his own life too, but then the other half of me just wanted to get all them together (impossible, because there are millions of them) and tell them everything. Tell them that I'm a person with feelings too, and that they don't know the full story. But I knew these were feelings that I had to get over, because I couldn't do nothing. The sad thing is, is that we're not even a thing. I will admit we kissed, but It was more a heat of the moment thing. 

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It was the next morning, and the first thing I did on my phone this morning was unfollow harry from everything, by everything I mean twitter and instagram. I can't wait for the shit storm that's going to happen within the next few hours. It's sad to think god forbid two people unfollow each other from social media actually means that they dislike each other, it was stupid but I guess it worked in our favour because that's exactly what we wanted people to think. 

Sadly I knew that It was time to go back to work, I loved summer break from school, but the 4 month breaks you get in college are just too much. And lets all be honest, working at Starbucks full time is just horrible. So I oddly enough you could say that I'm pretty excited for school to start up. I think it comes with age, I'm in college for something I want, so it's a little more enjoyable. 

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It was my 30 minute break at work and of course I got out of there as fast as I could, the only plus side of working at a Starbucks in a mall is that I can ditch the place when ever time I had a break. I went to one of those dozens of lounge chair areas that malls have to just sit down for a little. Pulling out my phone I was waiting and expecting to find my twitter and twitter in general in shambles. Was that cocky of me? I mean the one direction fan base thus far has freaked out over anything and everything so I only assume they'd be celebrating Harry unfollowing one of his many "girls". I just hope they don't think I'm some horrible person, because that would definitely be the opposite of what we wanted. I just want everything between Harry and I to be out of the public's eye. 

"what do you think she did?" 

"Harry probably got tired of her" 

"guys they never were a thing, so there was nothing to end. they probably just fucked and that's it" 

"omggggggggggggggg she better not have hurt our haz" 

YOUR???????? I know I'm just getting heated up looking at these tweets, but I can't get personally offended by what they say. He's not mine, and he's certainly not theirs. I know that they love him and he loves them back, but they have to realize that reffering to him like that just makes him seem like property to be had and if I were in his postion I wouldn't want the people that I thought loved me talking about me like that. 

<hunter>: "heyy" 

<harry>: "you okay?" 

<hunter>: could be better, you fans are very passionate about you.