Why am I never good enough?
Why is it that I can never do anything you ask fast enough or good enough?
Sometimes it seems like you expect me to be a mind reader or that's how I feel when you're yelling at me for not doing something you expected of me. You make it hard for me to love you yet I have to love you. I have to love you because you do everything for me. When I say everything, I mean everything in your power. When you can't do something for me, you get stressed, and upset, when you can't make something happen for me, but that's not what matters. What matters is that you try your hardest and that's why I have to love you.
What I'm trying to say here is if you love me as you say, then why do you treat me like a piece of shit when you get upset? Why do you only take everything out on me when it's only my fault sometimes? When we were in that room alone when you were having a bad day did you have to take it out on me and make me cry knowing in just a few moments I was gonna have to walk out in front of a room full of people with tears still running down my face? Why is it that you have to embarrass me in front of your friends in some way every time they come around? Why did you have to drag me by my hair to my room in front of them? Why do you kick and slap?
Do you want to know what the worst part is? When I just want to be alone and cry, you enter my room after you've calmed down and expect me to still say I love you back. I want you to realize how are hard that is. I want you to know how that hurts me. It hurts because I'm not supposed to question my love for you. You are the one person I'm supposed to forever love. You are the person I'm supposed to love the most in this horrible world.
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These Notes You'll Never Receive
AcakIn this book, I have collected (and still am collecting) letters and notes from people all around, some I know very well and some I've never met. They have written these heartfelt notes to certain people, but never intend on sending them. These are...
