My Composition Notebook

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Hey, Notebook

10:14pm

April 24, 2015

So today was going well, I had one of the best days at school and the charity organization I was volunteering for sent me my new project.

But then.....

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I was getting made fun of because of my weight, my clothes, my hair , my look.

I don't think people understand how much that can hurt others, I mean like they stay stuff, and think it's a joke.

The stuff that people said to me today is still echoing inside my head, I can only remember all the bad things people have told me.

Or maybe that's the only things people tell me, I'm so tired and so depressed.

And that's not just it I had bought an acoustic guitar recently, with my own money that I saved and it was mishandled and its neck is damaged.

When I heard what happened, I was at a friends, and I just died a little inside.

And I think that's the one real feeling I have felt in a long time, it was so painful,it felt like I just lost a piece of my heart right there.I just feel like going into a corner and cry my self to sleep, which I'm most likely gonna do now.

And you know what the worst part is notebook, I actually went and apologized to a girl for being me, I was told that I was over reacting over my first self bought guitar which I worked quite hard for.

I actually cried today and I haven't been able to do that for so long, I just keep everything in for over a year now.

I know that's not much, people go through much more like not having the basic necessities for living like food or water.

But sometimes I just.., I just... no never mind I'm not going to say it.

I read this quote once it said

"when you tell your story and don't cry, that's when you know you've healed" and I guess I have not healed yet.

Until next time my dear imaginary friend.

~ Kat

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Hello darlings, I can't believe I'm actually getting readers on this lol.

I thought this thing was really boring since this is to many people.

I have a little treat for you all probably next week, it's just this poem thing I wrote so you guys can tell me what you think it's kinda private to me.

Well not private but somethings I felt before I started avoiding many feelings, I suppose it's for the best.

I won't let my feelings get the best of me again, but I will when the time is right but I fear that if I let one loose all of them will com poring out like a broken dam.

That might be a little to much to take on in one day so I decided it's best for me to keep all my feelings trapped.

I guess thats bad since it would probably turn into a volcano but you know I can't let it erupt so I'll just make it stronger and save the hurt for later.

Haha sorry about my little rant I'll stop now.

So don't forget to comment and vote cuz if you do you will be one of the first people to since no one has on this one yet.

But don't worry you don't have to, I love you guys.