My Composition Notebook

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Dear Notebook,

September 18th, 2015                                                                                                                                                                                              11: 47pm

Hey, it's been a while

I'm really sorry I just never have time to write down my feelings it takes me way to long.

So recently I got moved to a high school where I know no one, well I know this one guy but that's pretty much it.

I was actually really sad about no being able to see the few friends I actually have anymore, but a part of me knew it was for the better.

I'm actually loving it there, life couldn't get any better, but maybe it could!

now you're probably confused how Kat is so happy, I'll tell you why

recently, I have met the best people that anyone could ask for, as friends!

Yes, true that I have the urge of doing things I told my self I wouldn't do.

But thats why I keep my self busy, I have school, club meetings, practice then homework.

I am trying to give no time for unwanted emotional drama.

Oh and I almost forgot to tell you, I have met the most amazing guy and he's my best friend, and I have really good reasons on why he is my best friend.

1) He is always there for me

2) He's very protective of me, which I love because I haven't really had someone who is so protective of me.

3) He is AWESOME

4) Literally know's exactly what to say and the right time to say it.

5) Sacrifices his sleep to talk to me when I'm feeling down. (and not txt but an actual phone call)

6) Said no matter how hard I try I'm never gonna get rid of him.

7) Is ready to hurt anyone who hurts me

8) Loves hugs just like me. (but I love them more)

9) Let's me steal his hoodie!

10) And omg I could go on and on about how I could talk to him forever without getting tired, the list is very long, so let's just say that he's amazing and super sweet!

He is literally super amazing and can always make me laugh.

See I've had friends before I've also had  quite a few best friends, but none of them were like him.

He's actually the complete opposite of me but yet we can literally talk about everything, he's a Gemini and I'm a Pisces.

He's air and I am water but our conversations are very smooth, I guess we are just easily gelable.

I know no matter what happens he will always be there for me, my rock, my shoulder to cry on, my best friend.

One night I found out that someone I used to love a lot was in a position where I was a couple years ago.

and imagining that I started to freak out no one was home, I was throwing things every were, I was sobbing my guts out.

But then I called him, and we talked, we talked for over an hour.

we didn't do anything but talk, he listened to me, he actually listened and understood every word of what I was saying.

Even though at that time I probably wasn't making any sense.

I talked about my past, some of my fears, things I'm afraid that will happen again.

He actually cared about what I had to say.

I'm not very used to venting out to people, about how I'm feeling and thats because I suck at feelings.

I usually try to take my mind off of what ever I'm feeling, but I just can't when I'm talking to him.

I have the need to tell him everything.

But then he talked, talked a little bit about his past, a little bit about life, a little bit about everything.

And I listened, I didn't miss a single word of what he told me,

he is very strong emotional, mentally and physically.

Between my sobbing and trying to talk he made me a promise, we call it "The Permanent Marker Metaphor" and honestly speaking that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever told me in my entire life.

And I made the promise back to him.

You know what I've noticed about him, he's a little bit broken, no thats a lie.

He is very broken, he's heart broken, his trust is broken, his faith is broken.

Over all he's pretty much broken.

I wan't to help him, I really do, but he refuses to let anyone help him.

And that kinda annoys me because I love helping, it's my thing and I know it's nothing personal but I still have the need to try helping.

I should really stop trying to do things I shouldn't be doing.

We talked for over an hour, the time kinda flew.

Minute by minute I was feeling better, I was laughing, smiling and my eye's were not blood shot anymore.

I .... I was...... I was glad.

I was so thankful to have met this amazing human being.

I haven't been this glad since the 6th grade when I met a nerdy kid at the front of the bus, who was quite older than me but very interesting.

I'm loving life right now, I actually have 2 amazing best friends, but I consider the other one more of a sister to me, I love her so much it hurts haha..

Can't believe everything's finally working out, It feels awesome!

Love

       Kat!

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Hey loves!

Incredibly sorry I haven't updated in over 2 month's.

Please forgive me, I apologize I really have been busy I was at nationals and when I got back I had field hockey practice for school because they start those in mid or late summer.

yes, this page does have a lot of truth about my life but...

most of you don't know me well enough to know that I'm am quite the opposite of Kat

I'm more of a "ray of sunshine" than a well Kat!

School started on the 19th of August for me, so I've been really busy

1st Quater is coming to an end soon, and it's kinda scary how freshmen year is flying by.

I kinda wrote this so you all can understand, no matter how bad it may seem it actually will and does get better.

you just need to hang in there and stay strong!

I love you so much!

Bye!!!! loves!!!