Realms SMP Ships

Dear Action (Fuzion x Action)

July 24, 2015. 8:22 P.M

Dear Action,

           Hi babe, how are you doing today? I didn't receive any letters from you these past few days and I'm kind of getting worried. Is everything okay? Did my letter reach you? I thought I'd send you another one so maybe you'd be able to reply. I love you so much!

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July 26, 2015. 4:15 P.M

Dear Action,

           Babe? I still haven't received a response from you, I'm getting worried. Are you okay? Please respond to me.. I love you.

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July 27, 2015. 5:03 P.M

Dear Action,

         Babe, I have some really great news! I'm finally graduating in a few weeks - 3 weeks, to be specific. Can you believe that? I'm finally out of school! I can't describe properly how happy and excited I feel right now, yet at the same time I also felt kinda sad. Why? Because you still haven't sent me a single message. Are you busy or something? Please send me at least just one letter, I really miss you.

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August 16, 2015. 7:44 P.M

Dear Action,

         Love, I finally graduated today! I am so happy right now. I really wish you could be here to celebrate with us! If only you'd respond to me. But anyways, we're having a graduation party tonight. I can not wait!

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August 25, 2015. 6:09 P.M

Dear Action,

        Hi love, sorry if I hadn't sent any letters for a few days. I have been kind of busy lately. But you haven't sent anything to me back, I am getting really worried for you. Did something happen?

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August 28, 3:26 A.M

Dear Action,

        Babe, please. Come help me.. I had a nightmare about you and I couldn't stop crying. In my nightmare, you died and I was at your funeral. Baby, I'm so scared. I know it isn't real but I'm still so terrified. Please, respond to me. I really need you right now..

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September 3, 2015. 9:21 P.M

Dear Action,

        Babe, help me.. the voices in my head.. they won't stop!

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September 5, 2015. 7:54 P.M

Dear Action,

        Love, please.. I am begging you. Respond to me, I am getting agitated. Tell me that it is not true. Tell me that the voices in my mind are all just messing with me. Tell me you are still here. Please, Action. Please tell me.

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        September 6, 2015. 3:12 A.M

Dear Action,

        You know, I really tried. I fucking tried. But I can't. I couldn't. I am not capable of accepting it, the truth. The awful, terrifying truth. I tried my best to act as if it never happened, as if you are still as alive as I am. But every day, it haunts me. It still does, and I don't know how to make it stop. All this time, I knew you are gone. I knew you aren't coming back. I'm aware, Action. I am well aware! Yet, I don't want to accept it. I still kept on sending mails to you, even if I know that it's impossible that I'll ever get a response back from you - but I still hoped I would. I hoped that some sort of miracle would occur and one day I'd see in my mailbox is a letter from you. If I stopped sending letters, that would mean I am moving on. I'M NOT, I CAN'T, AND I DON'T WANT TO! If I ever lay my pencil down, it means I'm letting you go. I don't want to let go of you, baby. Not yet.

        My parents, my siblings, my friends, everyone, they all told me to accept it and continue on with my life. Well, the thing is, I can't. Not without you. Not in a life without you. Not in a world without you. I could never, baby. I could honestly never survive that.

        I fear that a day would come, and I would come to realize that I do need to let go. In order for me to get out of the pain, be free from the cage, from the torture of you not being with me. It is tearing me apart, honestly. But at the same time, I don't want to let go. Not yet.

        I am willing to wait for a few more days, weeks, or months. I will wait. Will there still be a possibility that all of this was just a figment of my imagination and you respond to me? I hope, baby. I hope.

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October 6, 2015. 12:51 A.M

Dear Action,

        It's been a month, baby. Still no responses received. Guess it wasn't all a dream. Guess it wasn't just my mind playing with me. Guess it was me being in pure denial. Guess it was me who kept running away from the truth. Guess it were all real.

        I love you so much. I hope you know that. Letting go of a person you loved so much, a person that completed your life, a person who became your better half. It's never easy. It's so hard that it managed to take me out of my sanity.

        That is what must be done. It's scary, but I know you believe in me. I know that you know I can do it. I know that you know I will be able to get through this mess. With you in my heart, I know I'm okay. It's going to hurt, but I am now willing to take a risk.

        I can't let go of you, but now I will. I can't forget you, but soon I will. I can't unlove you, but I know soon I will.

       I'll be okay, soon. Without you. Just me.

        Action, my beloved, my precious, my life, my happiness, my other half, my better half, for the last time, Goodbye and once again, I love you so much.