𝖧𝖾'𝗌 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖾<3 𝖪𝗂𝗍 𝖢𝗈𝗇𝗇𝗈𝗋 𝗑 ᶠᵉᵐ! ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

Part 8

KIT POV

Our date went really well! We went to the beach and walked around town. We couldn't go to a resturant, because Y/N doesn't like eating in front of many people. I'm working right now. We're almost done with shooting the last episode of season one.

Today hasn't been a good day for Y/N though. She didn't want to get up, so I had to drag her out of bed. She didn't want to eat, but since she was doing so good, I couldn't let her stop her streak. We had a mini arguement and I said some things.

Y/N comes to set with coffee for everyone.

"Hey, guys! " She walked and smiled. She had a donut in her hand that she had been eating.

"Y/N?" I looked back at her and she smiled brighter.

"Hey, Sweetheart! I've got coffee for everyone!"

"Thanks, Y/N!" Everyone said and took their coffee.

"Hey," She gave me a peck on the lips and sat next to me. I looked over at her and smiled.

"I was walking to, really anywhere and I walked into the coffee shop that I used to work at."

She offered me a bite of her donut, and I just took a little bite. She set her head on my shoulder.

"I think they love you. Mostly Joe."

"Well, maybe they do. Ya jealous?" She nudged me on the shoulder.

"Love you, Y/N!" Yasmin and Joe said in unison. They got up and they hugged.

"We should throw a party to celebrate Y/Ns almost full month of being clean!" Sebastian practically yelled.

"Where do you expect we throw a party?"

"We can do it at your house, Kit! You have the biggest house compared to us!" William suggested.

Y/N looked at me and her eyes lit up.

"We should throw a party! That could be so fun!" She grabbed both of my hands.

"I'll regret this, won't I? Sure, why not?"

"I promise I'll clean up what ever mess there is! I can invite Nilly and Ally, too!" Y/N smiled, which made me smile.

"We're going to throw a banger party!" Corina Brown exclaimed.

"Ah, ah, ah. That's where your wrong. It can't be too loud because my dogs do not like loud noises."

"So I'm your dogs now?" Y/N smiled and looked at me.

"Yeah. Well, I like you like I like my dogs."

"You like her? You guys haven't said 'I love you' yet?" Joe asked.

Y/N shook her head, "I guess we aren't at that stage yet. Maybe one day, but love is also a strong word."

"Yeah, give them time! They only had their first date yesterday!" Yasmin said.

"I'll be the first to say it though!" I said proudly.

"No, you got to ask me out first, I get to say the 3 words when I want to, FIRST." She got real close to my face.

"You guys are so cute. How did you just get together?" William asked me.

"Because Y/N doesn't know how to ask people out, apparently." I put my arm around her shoulders.

"I have little to no confidence, are you okay with that, Mr Connor?" Y/N turned away from me.

"No, actually. I'm not okay with that." I smiled at her.

"You guys, We need you on set!" Alice yelled and we all put our drinks down and ran to set.

Y/N POV

Little trigger warning!!

After everyone left, I went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and washed my hands. I put my finger down my throat to make myself throw up, successfully. Today isn't going as planned and to be honest, I don't want to be here, but I got to at least act okay, for Kit.

end of trigger warning

After I feel like I'm done, I wash my hands again. I clean out the sink and begin to cry. I look back into the mirror, and I just look terrible. I'm wearing grey sweatpants and a grey, long-sleeved crop top. I wipe my face with a wet paper towel, and thank god I didn't wear make-up today.

I walk out as if nothing happened. They weren't recording, so I waved to Kit to tell him goodbye and his waves back. I left and went back home. I sat on the couch in a ball and bawled my eyes out. My thoughts were racing a mile a minute.

'Why did I do that?' 'What's wrong with me?' 'When will this stop?' 'Will I do it again, and when?' 'I have to try, I can't do this again, I can't do it, for Kit and everyone else.'

*Second time skip brought to you by: Kit dancing*

After shooting, Kit comes home and I guess I dozed off because he laid down with me, holding me close to him.

"Hey, Y/N. You need to wake up, we have a party to get ready for." He said quietly as I fluttered my eyes open slowly. He looked at me and moved some hair out of my face. "Are you feeling alright?"

"Yeah, just a little tired, that's all." I smiled at him and he nodded.

"We can cancel the party if you want." He looked really worried. I can't let him be worried though.

"No, that's alright. You don't work tomorrow, so we can sleep in, huh?" I smiled, I felt weak. I felt like I wasn't in control of anything. Not my body movements, or just my emotions.

"Yeah, we can. Let's get up though, we still have to get lights and everything."

We get up and Kit sets up lights. I text Ally and Nilly to come over and they said yeah. I told them it was a party and they went crazy.

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