𝖧𝖾'𝗌 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖾<3 𝖪𝗂𝗍 𝖢𝗈𝗇𝗇𝗈𝗋 𝗑 ᶠᵉᵐ! ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

part 10

KIT POV

After the party, I headed to our room. I cleaned up the mess, and I'm guessing Corina is just going to stay here tonight. Rhea too. They're all really proud of Y/N and I really don't blame them. She's such a great person and she been trying so much to get better, I thought she might be getting better, boy was I wrong. She hasn't had a nightmare in days, so that's good.

I can't lose Y/N. Right now, she's my whole life. Since we finished shooting heartstopper, I want to spend more time with her. I go to our room and Corina is just holding Y/N. She was hiding her face, so I didn't know what was going on. Was she crying? was the first thing that came to my mind. She rushed toward her.

"Y/N? What happened?" I kept my voice soft, althoigh I was really panicking.

"I don't know. We were sleeping when she started to move around. She kept repeating your name, but when I woke her up, she told me not to bother you."

Y/N was shaking really hard. She peaked out and I saw her eyes. They looked dark. Darker than ever. I grab her and pull her close when I sit down, Corina stood up and left.

"Y/N, wha..what happened? "

She wouldn't talk. She started to bawl. I moved so we were actually sitting at the headboard. She held onto my shirt, like a child.

"Kit, I'm sorry.." She finally got out. There was a wet spot on my shirt where she had been crying.

"For what? What's wrong, love?"

She looked up at me. Her eyes were red and puffy. She rolled up her sleeves.

*tw: mention of SH*

There were cuts, freshly cut. We made eye contact. It was my turn to start crying. I rolled her sleeve back down. I hugged her tightly, her head burried into my chest. Now, both of us bawling. She reached her arm up, her sleeve covering her hand, and she wiped my tears.

"Kit, please don't cry. I don't like it, and it doesn't make me feel better, you know?" She still looked down.

"Well, I don't like you cutting yourself, so we're even now!" I accidentally raised my voice. It was still quiet, but louder than I intended.
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End of TW*

She put her arms around my waist and hugged me tight. Only succeeding in making me feel worse. She looked back at me, wiped her tears, and kissed me. Softly.

We both ended up drifting off about 20 minutes later. When we woke up, Rhea and Corina were gone. I guess they left early this morning. It was 2 in the afternoon, so I made Y/N and I some toast for brunch.

We sit down, and Y/N starts talking about random stories of things. Found out, she knew William Gao. They've been friends for a while, since grade school actually. She never met us, because she didn't know that he was in heartstopper.

"I went bozonkers when I found out about Tao Xu. Will was always a great actor, he would act in plays a lot in school. He was also really funny. He would preform comedy acts during school talent shows. We even dated for a few weeks. We're still the best of friends. Actually, we might've dated for about a year, but then I ended up moving and we couldn't do online dating because it's hard. We still kept in contact though."

I didn't know that Y/N could talk so much in 10 seconds. Such a fast speaker, she is.

"Oh, I had no idea you knew him. I mean, of course you would know him, he's a great person. I didn't know you knew him personally though. "

"I remember when we first met, it was a wonder. I had wanted to walk up to him since the first day he moved, but never had the courage. I guess, I was always a shy person. But then, we had to work on a project together and then we became friends. After all of middle school, people thought we were together because we were literally inseparatable, we started dating. Until High school, when I had to move. We dated a little while after I moved, we called everyday, until one day I told him I couldn't do it anymore."

"Well, you guys could have gotten back together when you came back, couldn't you have? Why'd you pick me over him?"

"Oh, you little insecure boy. I picked you because one, I don't like him like that anymore. and two, because I love you. I want to be with you," She grabbed my hand, "You know that! He is nice, but I mean, you. You're just perfect."

"I wouldn't say that. I am definetly not perfect. I don't think anyone is. Well, you're the closest I've had to a perfect person. "

"And, this is why I love you, don't you see, Kit? You're wonderful, you are beautiful. Even if you don't think you are. Everyone loves you, just look at heartstopperTwitter. They love you."

"they love nick nelson. They don't love me, y/n. They love joe, bash, rhea, cortina, william, and everyone else! you love william!"

"you really want to start this? You want to fight?" she out her hand on the table, " you're the one who's famous, popular, you could leave me for any girl you want by the snap of your finger!" she snapped her fingers. "Be realistic, Kit! I have no choices!"

"you have william! isn't that the only reason why you cam searching here, is for william? You said it yourself, y/n! When you heard of william, you decided to use me as a pawn to see will again!"

she scoffed. i went too far, i did. So bad. "I didn't come to your set to meet Will! You know that Will and i had each others' phone numbers still?! I didn't need to use you to find will, because i already knew about him! i came to meet you! I thought you knew that, Kit! I guess i've been stupid! i love you kit, and i always will, but you need to get over yourself! I know what it's like to over-think something! I always have, and i always will!"

I'm stupid. I stood up and hugged her.

"I'm sorry, y/n. I guess i'm just tired. i shouldn't have said that. I know you didn't use me, i just.."

"i get it, hun. I-I just don't get why you would say or even think something like that about me. "

"I don't. How about we go on a little walk, can we do that?"

"Yeah, we can go. Let me get ready. "

She pulled away from me, pecked my lips, then ran into the bathroom. After a few seconds, i hear water running.

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