𝖧𝖾'𝗌 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖾<3 𝖪𝗂𝗍 𝖢𝗈𝗇𝗇𝗈𝗋 𝗑 ᶠᵉᵐ! ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

part 15

It's been one week since I joined this ward. I've grown to actually like it here. I feel safe, I've saved myself from myself. But I miss Kit. God, I miss him so much. I wish I could call him, but I don't want to annoy him or worry him. Does he even care enough to be worried?

I've made friends. That little boy feels like my son. I've hung out with him when we go outside, he eats lunch with me. He forces me to eat. I think I want him to be my son. I'm 18, I can adopt him. But I'm deemed insane given the place I'm at right now.

Today, I get a phone call. I have to call Kit. Talk to him. Tell him everything. Pretend that we're together again, check up on him. I hope he'll answer.

The nurse walks in, and I jolt up. I had been writing in my journal. "Y/N, it's time for a phone call." She says, her voice was nice and sweet, just like her. She's my favorite nurse because she doesn't treat us like we're burdens, unlike the others.

I smile, standing up so quick that I feel light headed, but I ignore it. I follow her out of my room, and when I see the wall of phones, I frown. What if he doesn't answer? What if he does answer an he doesn't care? What if he moved on?

I go to the phone and pick it up, dialing his number and waiting anxiously for him to pick up.

KIT POV

I had been hanging out with Ally and Nelly, along with my new girlfriend, her name is Adeline. She's really nice and cute... But I miss Y/N. I love her.

When my phone rings, I grab it. It was from a psych ward. I automatically knew who it was, so I answered.

"Hello?"

Y/N POV

My heart jumped as I heard his voice for the first time in a month. I smile softly, my voice seemingly raspy as I barely talk.

"Hi..." I say.

"Y/N?"

"Kit..." I mutter.

"How are you?"

"I uh... I'm in a hospital now... I've been here for a week. Overdosed on some pills.. "

"Jesus, Y/N. Why haven't you called me before?"

"Is that seriously what you're upset about?..."

"Yes! It's been a month and you haven't told me!"

I heard something on the other side of his phone. A female's voice.

"Kit, baby! Come on, we gotta go!"

That voice made my heart drop. The smile falls from my face, replaced my a frown.

"Oh.. I uhm... I guess... I-I..." I shake my head, crying already. I didn't finish before I quickly hung up, hanging the phone back up. The nurse walks up to me, trying to grab my arm, I quickly pull away.

"Don't touch me... Please..." I mutter, before quickly walking back to my room and closing the door, hearing it click shut. Locked. I lay down, facing the wall and curling up into a ball, crying my little heart out.

I want to die.