Learning to love

3

I was walking around the dark room that I used as an office, listening carefully to the storm that was unfolding outside, trying not to feel alone. Venice was sleeping in his room, Tae had already moved to his new house, Macao was sleeping in the primary family's house, he had a movie night with Che and Khun, and I was left alone in the house, together with my guards. I raise my glass of wine to my mouth, thinking of Pete, because I missed him so much and for a few moments I wished that he was next to me, that we could be together, hugging in our room, the room that I barely I also used it to sleep, many times I fell asleep on the couch in my office, just so I wouldn't remember him. I take a deep breath and close my eyes, letting myself be overwhelmed by the pain I was feeling, I needed to get rid of this pain, I needed to become the old Vegas as quickly as possible, this is because this Vegas, which I am now, is wounded and vulnerable and it doesn't help anyone to be like that.

"Boss Vegas." I hear Nop's voice pulling me out of my thoughts, as soon as he opens the office door.

"Night?"

"I'm sorry to bother you, but we have a situation, and we don't know how to handle it."

"What else happened?" I asked them, sighing with all my heart, I was so tired.

"Pete has been standing in the rain for more than two hours. The guards at the gate informed me of this situation a few minutes ago, because you took away his access to enter the house. He was informed to leave, but he didn't want it." He tells me, and I swallow hard, I actually didn't have any energy left to get into another argument with Pete.

"Tell him to go, I think it's better that way."

"I know it's not my problem and I'm not allowed to give such advice, considering my status, but I care about your Boss Vegas, and I don't like to see you suffer. Try to talk to him, maybe he will it's better that way."

Nop was right, but I didn't have enough mental energy to fight Pete again. I love him, this will remain so until I'm dead, but with all that, to have him by my side but to live with the doubt that he doesn't love me enough or that I'm not enough for him grinds me out of my way- outside.

"Bring him here." I order Nop and he leaves, leaving me alone.

PETE 

I don't know since when I was standing in the rain in front of the gates of Vegas' house and honestly, I don't even know how I got here. I know that after I got out of Vegas' car, I decided to walk home, just to be able to think, just to be able to pay attention to my thoughts and not others' and that's how I got here. I was wet from head to toe, and the Vegas guards wouldn't let me in the house. I'm not surprised, I knew I was forbidden in Vegas' house, he told me so many times, but with all that I wanted, now more than ever, to be near him. When I got out of the car, my body was filled with immense pain and it wasn't even physical pain, it was mental pain, seeing Vegas not letting me touch Venice, seeing Mr. How he held my son in his arms and protected him, when in fact I was supposed to do that. YES, I was very wrong, choosing to follow a stupid dream instead of the love I had for Vegas, it was only my fault and the worst of all, is that I made Vegas suffer and lose his love. I was startled when the house gate opened, Nop stood on it, protecting herself from the rain with an umbrella, while she handed me another umbrella, which I refused. What was the point of opening it again? We spent many hours in the rain.

"Pete, come on, Vegas is waiting for you." I hear Nop as he opens an umbrella to protect me from the rain.

"Does he want to see me?" I ask him and he smiles at me for a moment then nods his head as a sign of yes.

I don't know when or where I found the strength to run, but it was necessary to get to him, faster. I run and run entering the dimly lit house and start towards our bedroom, but I stop when Vegas appears at the end of the stairs, looking at me and holding a towel, which he throws at my feet.