Log 50,
I got a new parchment. The last one was shredded to pieces for unknown reasons, I couldn't even write three sentences. It sucks but oh well.
So uh, something happened and I don't know what to fully think of it. My heart is quite joyous and it feels like the sea, deep and filled with raging emotions.
But I'm also confused? Sort of? My confusion goes beyond like a tornado, everything around me is haywire and confusing but I am calm in the middle of that disaster.
Rosalyn keeps on giving me a wry smile, Beacrox and that old man glares at me like it's the end of the world. Let's not even begin with the children, they were very very suspicious ‐ On looks at me so pitifully that it's damaging to the heart.
Eruhaben-nim keeps on shaking his head and the two; Hong and Raon just laughs??? Alberu was looking at me as if I had grown two heads, what is happening??? And the rest of the family is just shrugging this off like it was normal??
Cale-nim was pretty touchy with me today though, it made my heart really really jump. I can't keep my act together so I was pretty much busted, blushing and fluttering around him.
I think I made him sad. I wonder why?
Last night, he was having a nightmare. I was in his room because he wanted me there, for some reason. I didn't question it, of course! I'll always oblige to whatever he needs. He was mumbling about me going away. That he was sorry.
I don't get it. He didn't do anything specifically to me? Hm, maybe I went away in his dream and he was calling out. I heard dreams were a memory or a vision of the future, but I'll never go away. I have a fulfillment to stay by his side, so I won't. It would take more than Gods to make me sway.
I'll make sure of that.
Don't worry Cale-nim, I won't go away. I'll always stay and love you forever, even if you won't do the same :)
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