That One Ride

Chapter 47: The Pain

"Your love is the poison I will drink like honeydew. Your love is a river of fire which I have to cross by drowning in it."
- TA_BLOOMFIELD

A/N

I don't know how much justice I am doing with this chapter. But I am terrified of your reaction to this one. I hope you all will like it. *fingers crossed*

PS: I will not take your comments as an offence as long as you respectfully present them.

Love to all.
-Ta_Bloomfield (You can call me Tanya)

Teresa's POV

Next day after leaving Alex's mansion...

Sleep didn't come last night, nor did the peace I left behind the doors when I stepped out of his house. Sitting on the couch of my old apartment, I sipped the hot chocolate as early morning sun rays knocked the darkness of the apartment from the window. The phone flashed for a hundredth time from the lamp beside me, reflecting Alex's name. When I did not pick up, a ping showed the routine sorry message with a pick-the-damn-call after hanging up the call.

I sigh deeply as I stood up, my stomach grumbling from the hunger. For the first time in weeks, I had felt nauseous, and he was not here to comfort me by rubbing my back when I puked my stomach empty at night. He was not here to hold my hair up and then cuddle me to bed until I fell asleep. A lone tear fell down my eyes, turning into a full-blown shower. I rubbed my belly as I leaned onto the kitchen counter, my hips resting on the edge.

"Daddy loves you, baby. Mommy loves you, too. But he has hurt mommy, very much." I said in a whisper, tugging the hem of my t-shirt as soft squeals escaped my mouth along with cries.

I switched on the stove and cooked breakfast for the two of us. I placed the plate, filling it with scrambled eggs and juices John left at my apartment last night. I and my baby ate breakfast in silence.

Three days after leaving Alex's mansion...

Jessica, I and David came back from the doctor's appointment. The chubby baby slept on my chest as soon as I landed us on the sofa. I looked at the first ultrasound of my pregnancy in my hands, my heart heavy with emotions I knew nothing of. A dot beeping at a steady pace, so faint to hear on speaker yet so peaceful to my ears. Magical. Unreal. I rubbed the back of David as a smile formed my lips, kissing the top of his head as I inhaled his baby scent.

My god godson my baby will be going to be best friends.

The sudden thought of Alex poked my mind, and tears filled my eyes. He had been a pain in my ass recently with his hundred calls and messages every hour and... my heart bleeds every time I put my phone on silent.

A loud bang on the door made me escape out of my thoughts. Jessica furrowed her brows and took the whimpering in her arms and cooed.

"Teresa, my love, open the door."

My eyes widened at Alex's voice. MY heart screamed to open the gate and wrap myself in his arms to inhale his scent, but my mind warmed and reminded me of the pain I felt a few days back.

"Love, I know you are inside. Open the gate, please. I am sorry, baby. I'm so so so sorry. I know I was a fool, and I have given you the worst pain of your life. But, three days is enough to stay as much angry as you wanted to, right?" his voice cracked with every word. He was on the verge of crying with the heaviness he was speaking.

I pressed a hand on my lips, squeezing my eyes shut to not let any voice escape my throat as I sobbed in solace. I knew he hurt me, but I needed time to think over the things and act rationally. Needed time to look at every aspect of the situation and not come back to him and burst out of the volcano. The flame of anger turned into a bomb. I needed to let that bomb inside me cool down before facing him again.