Lovesick - Nikolai and Fyodor AU fanfic

Chapter III

"Im so happy you got to wear his clothes, now you should go to sleep its past eleven. C'mon you can sleep with me."

Nikolai spaced out for a second.

"Thank you!"

Sigma knew that he had problems to sleep if something happened in his day, today he murdered someone that surely wasnt going to be an easy night.

"Go on take a shower I'll wait for you."

The split haired one put the advanced pizza on the table and set up another bed near his one. This was something that happened often, Nikolai hated to admit that he was scared so averytime he needed emotion support he just showed up. The opposite of Sigma. He always prefered to ask and vent, even if he didn't have none to actually listen to him, a shame.
After he got out of the shower Sigma put on his pijiama while the other decided to sleep with Fyodor's clothes. They lined up in bed and turn off the light.

"Sigma."

Sigma turned to face Nikolai and asked him what was wrong.

"Do you think Dazai is ok?"

"Why do you ask about him? Just call him if you think something happene-"

"The one I killed was Chuuya."

Silence filled the room for some seconds.

"I am a moster... I dont deserve Fedya... Or you..."

That kinda warmth Sigma's heart, it wasnt a common thing for him to hear sweet things.

"You're not a monster... You just had to deal with a lot. And you dont have to deserve things if the things are the ones that want to stay with ya, you're not forcing us."

"You're right, but im still a killer. I steal the life of someone."

If there was something that the other one knew was that to make Nikolai's happy he needed to treat trauma with humor, so he wouldnt get too deep.

"You should have stole their virginity."

Nikolai chuckled.

"I should stop complaning... Goodnight Sigma"

"Goodnight then"

Sigma didnt sleep at all. The other constantly woke up for nightmares and spoke in his sleep. But Sigma knew that when Nikolai showed at his door at night meant that he wasn't going to sleep, but he was ok with that. The clown cried more than usual that night, but he killed someone so it was understandable. At about 5AM Nikolai calmed down and looked like he was finally able to sleep but at that point Sigma was not, so he decided to take a look at Nikolai's bag because he saw literal blood coming out from it the day before.

"I guess you really have jealousy issues sunshine..."

Sigma sighed and put the bag on his table, taking all the things that were inside it and washing them. He took out the heart and threw up, like every normal person would, but still put it inside a plastic bag and once everything was cleaned he put it back in it's place. But now it couldnt dirt anything. After all that cleaning he layed in his bed and waited for the other to wake up.

"Good morning Sigma! Have you slept well?"

"Yeahhh Im just a bit tired because I slept too much."

That wasn't true, but it didn't need to be true, it needed to make Nikolai happy. The two left the house at 8 o'clock and went in a cafe to have breakfast as they always did.

"Two days ago Kaji invited me to a party at his house. Its a big thing, almost the whole school is coming! But y'know... Parties really arent my thing... May you take my place?"