Flor

Mom.

ALEX
I'm heading to a town an hour away from home. I have an important conversation I need to have. Kai's in the passenger seat next to me. My mother used to be his foster mom. That's how I met him. It was only for a short time but we reconnected later on in life.

We pull into the cemetery. My heart feels wrenched. I fucking hate that I have to come here to talk to her. Instead of her house. I wish she was still fucking here. The cemetery is gated. I paid a lot of fucking money to have her buried here. She wanted to be in this town. It's where she was born. Her sister is buried next to her. My aunt.

There's green trees and greenery surrounding the entire cemetery. I want a private conversation with her first so Kai waits while I go.

I feel a deep pit in my stomach as I approach her plot. She's in the corner. It's secluded. My aunt being buried on the other side of the small fence around her. There's an arch above the entrance to her small area. There's fresh flowers. Me and Kai make sure to come often. Kai's been coming since I was gone.

I walk up to her. Her light grey stone clean and polished. I put down a boquet of lilles.

"Hi momma." I say. My throat feels tight. I'm happy to be here because the whole reason I came was to tell her I found the girl. But my fucking gut wrenches that my mother is no longer here with me.

"I found her." My voice chokes. I feel the tears sting my eyes. The warm tear falls down my cheek. "I thought I almost lost her." My voice breaks. The memories of her bleeding in my hands taint my brain. I would have had to talk to her like this too.

"I didn't think I could love someone like this mom." I sob. I feel my heart wrench. All I want is to be with her for the rest of my life. I always knew she was going to be the one. "Her name is Flor momma."

I kneel down and kiss my hand before tapping it on the gravestone. "You would have loved her." I whisper. I take a few shuddering breaths. Fuck. I'm angry at the world since I lost my mother but she made everything feel soft again.

It's like I was seeing the world in black and grey and she brought the color back. I walk over to my aunt's grave. I drop flowers for her too. She was like a second mother to me. She left me too.

"You'd like how badass she is." I chuckle. My aunt used to be into racing and MMA. I know she'd think Flor was dope.

I walk back to the car. Kai steps out to talk to them alone and I sit in the car. I feel serene. My soul feels soothed. It always does when I come see my mom.

A while later Kai comes back. "What'd you talk to her about." He wiggles his eyebrows. I smirk. "I dunnoo." I draw out. "A special someone maybe?" he teases.

I smile. Kai looks at me. "I swear to our holy mother I have never seen you smile until she came along."

I glare at him. But a smile toys at my lips. He's right.
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We've spent the day here and it's nearing evening. I have to stop to get gas before heading back.

I park next to the pump and put the nozzle in. I feel a presence behind me.

"Hey Alex." I turn and see a girl. Who the fuck. Oh jesus. It's the fucking girl that came up to me and Flor in the store. I furrow my eyebrows in annoyance before turning back to watch the pump. I literally barely remember her.

"Where's your girlfriend at?" she says with a fake smooth voice. It sends anger down my spine. If she thinks she even deserves my energy. I feel myself tense. I take out the nozzle and put it into the it's holder.

I turn around to walk around the car to my door. She speeds up to block my way. I stop abruplty. Not wanting to touch her in anyway. I feel fucking angry that she's so close to my personal space. "There's nothing about you i'm interested in. I barely even remember you." I snarl. She pouts her lips. "Oh cmon you don't miss my lips even a little bit."