What have I done? (Naruto various yandere!x fem!Reader)

13

Kakashi spent a lot of time on me for the next couple of months.

Unlike anime characters the death of people didn't motivate me, it terrified me. I wanted to turn over and die. This overbearing guilt felt like bricks stacked on my chest. But almost every day Kakashi would drag me out of bed and make me do something. We'd get Ice cream sometimes, go to a petting zoo, random things. He tried his best to cheer me up, and nothing would work. I'd always go right back to moping in my room.

"Hey," A familiar voice said, I turned my head to the door and saw the bright yellow locks that belonged to no one besides Naruto." Wanna go outside and play?"

I felt my eyes water even more but I quickly tried blinking them away."No Naruto. I don't feel like going outside today."

"You say that all the time, can't we just hang out?" He asked stepping into the room more. He was so small, or maybe the room was just so big. I was again reminded of my new body and how tiny it was. Everything felt bigger. And I felt way too small.

"I'm sorry Naruto..." I whispered turning my back to the boy.

"Oh c'mon! You're sad because of something stupid!" I kept my back turned to the blue-eyed boy." Sasuke isn't anywhere near as cool as me."

"Shut up! His whole family just died!" I yelled at him, it was a quick thing I hadn't truly thought about it. I spun around to look him in the eyes but instead wished I had just stayed silent and kept my back to him. Naruto looked angry, not because of what I said but because he genuinely didn't understand that I had seen the event take place.

"My whole family is dead too Y/n." He just walked away, and I just turned back around. There was nothing else to be said. As much as I would have loved to run after him and apologize i couldn't. I balled my hands up into fists and punched the wall right next to me. My tiny hands barely left a dent in the wall. I wanted to skip past all of this, to act like it never happened. I wanted it to be one of those things people said were 'a distant memory'. I curled up and berated myself for crying and getting angry. Eventually, I just fell asleep, my head felt too heavy to stay on.

I awoke at the sound of someone moving in my room, to find Sasuke in my room. Immediately I launched a pillow at him and then tried to grab one of my knives before i actually registered that it was him.

"What the-," Sasuke said before the pillow collided with his face. He just grabbed it and threw it back at me. It landed lazily to my left. He shook his head and looked me in my eyes."You wanted to talk to me?"

He almost looked like he'd aged 40 years in only a few years. Understandably so. I peered out my window." Not at midnight, this could've waited until tomorrow." Sasuke didn't respond, only folded his arms in front of his chest. I looked around the room." You can sit down if you want." I told him, gesturing to the chair in the corner of the room, the window sill, and the edge of my bed. Sasuke didn't move. I swallowed the lump in my throat and intertwined my fingers together in my lap. Sasuke and I just stared at each other. The things I had wanted to tell him had completely disappeared and I could feel his rising anger.

"I don't have time for this," Sasuke whispered.

"I was there too. I saw it happen." I dug my thumbnail into my hand. Would he be mad at me for not helping him? Would he blame me? My heartfelt like it'd beat out of my chest." I tried to get away, to tell someone so I could get help. But-." I cut myself off, I felt like I was back in the woods on that night. Everything was so vivid. Sasuke had his back to me, it reminded me of how I was to Naruto, was this how he felt too? I'd apologize to him some other time.

Sasuke's silence made me want to cry, want to scream, it made me want to punch him to get some kind of reaction out of him. I wanted to know what he was thinking. My eyes watered. I felt like a crybaby with how much I'd been crying recently. But anytime someone saw me crying they let me do it until I was finished.

"You don't deserve to be sad." He left through my window, not allowing me to reply to try and stop him. My chest tightened at the silence. It had never been so deafening. I couldn't sleep that night, not for a couple of hours.

When i did eventually fall asleep, I saw the words

A few years later

I sat up quickly, that was a weird dream, wasn't it? I climbed out of bed and walked to my dresser, new cravings were on it that i couldn't remember putting there. And new clothes filled my drawers.

"Fuck." I whispered running to the nearest mirror." Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.-" I nearly screamed at the sight of my slightly older visage. I had definitely grown, not a lot. But i was taller and my hair was longer. Kakashi peeked his head into my bedroom.

"Y/n? What's going on? I heard something hit the ground." I looked down and saw a photo album on the ground. I shook my head and looked at Kakashi.

"Ye-yeah I'm fine. Totally okay. JUst-"." I cleared my throat as my voice cracked. I could almost feel my sadness about the Uchiha's slipping away. It just felt unnatural. And I wanted everything to slow down. Kakashi tilted his head to the side and raised an eyebrow at me.

"Are you sure you're okay? You have that test today and I don't want you to not be feeling good."

I HAVE A TEST TODAY?! I screamed in my head, so glad no one can read my mind. I nodded and put the photo album on my dresser then folded my hands behind my back.

"I'm just great. Peachy." I bit the inside of my cheek and nodded slowly like I was confirming something.

"...Oh, is this puberty? Is this what everyone said would be the worst part about raising a daughter?" I screamed and covered my face. Jesus Christ if there was one thing I never thought I'd hear Kakashi say, it'd be this. I yelled for him to get out of my room, and saw Jelly peek her head out from the other side of my bed. I closed the door and sighed. My face was hot and I'm sure red as well. I facepalmed again before getting dressed.

If Kakashi starts making dad jokes I'm going to kill something.

Why am I not sad anymore?

I could feel the question bounce around in my brain, but I just couldn't find the sadness connected to the situation anymore. But why? It was so weird and I wanted to throw up a little. Jelly stood up and nuzzled my leg once I had everything on. I exited the room and played with my hair a bit. It wasn't too much longer than my hair was back in the real world. Maybe I'd cut it or find someone who could dye it. I walked into the kitchen, which just like always was empty except for a small plate of food.

I shivered a little at how I knew this was normal. I grabbed the plate and quickly ate my food before calling Jelly and walking out of the house. Almost instantly I was grabbed and put in a hug.

"Y/n!" I went wide-eyed at the voice of none other than Sakura. When the hell were we friends?

"Sakura?" I wrapped my arms around her too, very confused. She smiled at me and we began walking to school. She kept talking about how we were the smartest people in the class and that the test wouldn't be hard at all. I heard Naruto yelling, then I heard two other people yelling.

This is the first episode.

I nearly had a heart attack at the realization.

Idk why this chapter was so hard to write, but have 3.8 pages worth of writing

or 1409 words for wattpaders