ephemeral

one of a kind girl

i often wonder
if you ever even knew me.
i wonder if you know
the things i love.
my favorite color.
you'd say blue,
you'd be wrong.
it's yellow.
my favorite movie.
you wouldn't know that
it's a movie made
almost 70 years ago.
my favorite song.
it's a sad one written 10 years ago.
you don't know where i start
and i don't know where you end.
i figured i'd find it out eventually.
why you're so traumatized,
why you can't stand me,
why you obsess over shortcuts,
why your name keeps coming up,
why i started liking you
beyond your ginger colored hair,
why i spent months on your trail,
why i did so many stupid things
in an attempt to make you mine,
why you never cared about me
for even a second.
you were special in my eyes
and yet all along you were just
another boy
who didn't know a single thing
about this one of a kind girl.