OUTCAST CHAPTER: SIX
"I need a break, from my brain, my heart, my everything, for a moment, or forever."
"Arrange me a appointment with Head doctor Benjamin." Eun spoke to her secretary as she walked out of Jung's room, hand still bleeding. "Yes, doctor. Anything more?" Jennifer, her secretary, nodded. "Nothing, you may leave." The secretary nodded as she made her way off. " Eun hurried to the infirmary. "Mai! Please help me, The patient got violent." Mai, was the medical nurse, she came out chuckling, "It's not the first time patients get triggered with you, is it?" She spoke as Eun gave her a playful glare. "Hey, Not everyone!" Mai chuckled as she cleaned the wound. "What about James, That Bipolar guy in the 3rd ward? Or Hanuel (pronounced as hanool) The Autism girl in the 1st ward? You find a way to trigger them, and mend them with it. You never used tasers at all, not even When I was admitted here, the other doctors used them on me." Mai spoke, a gentle smile on her face as she remembered the doctor who comforted her day and night, made her feel secure, was now sitting here in front of her whining. "Tasers are too painful. They're shocking. It is not good for the body, except in really violent times, a minus one or minus three can be used, no more than that. You yourself know how many times you cried like a baby, due to the pain." Eun stated. Mai applied the medicine and was now tying it up when she asked, "Is the child, schizophrenic?" Eun painful smiled, and nodded. "Mhm, reminds me of how she struggled, every single day, she got beaten, for the silly mistakes at her cooking,.. But no one knew who cared, until she took her own life in front of me. I saw her hang herself on the fan, dead." Eun's eyes pooled with tears as she remembered her. "I'm happy There is a song that describes this, Wanna listen?"
"Like a tiny speck of dust
flying in the air,
If I were the tiny snow,
I could've reached you faster.
Snowflakes are falling,
getting farther away,
I miss you,
I miss you,
How long do I have to wait?
How many long nights do I have to stay awake?
Till I can see you,
Till I can meet you,
Past the end of the cold winter,
until the spring comes again,
until the flowers bloom again,
Stay there a little longer. "-
"Wow, that song is, great, I'll go listen it from home." Mai spoke, as she tenderly patted Eun's hand. "I forgot to ask you, how'd you understand what he said?" Mai asked, "Just cut out the unnecessary words, Like, hmm.. let's see, he said ' Yowu smell like lovfdce, douc' in this, cut out w, wd, wsw, fdce,u' Sentence becomes, 'you smell like love, doc.'' Eun smiled, as Mai spoke, "What about the others?" Eun took out her phone, "I recorded our convo, Now I'll tell you."
"R-rejally, She is my rehgally gffng, But I cgrrgan't fegrel her anfvd nodsw I fefel all....Hideoderwus, restleedjissness, ugfly, I can't conruy wrgcentrate, I'm goingfr crfazy, It's like Myfr mrfind hars a mrfind orf it's owrfn and I cwean't conetrol It, I felt so fruftdmij that I- Yowu smwdell liwswke lovfdce, douc.Del haffs, she hasdd thwis sedweet smwell of everythedcing. A mdeix of evethinddg, Thfat's whfat I carrvrll smedll of lodsve." The recording ended, as Eun smiled as Mai's face frowned, "What is all that gibberish? I can't understand," Mai Spoke, "It means, 'Really? She is my really good friend, but I can't feel her, and now I feel all, hideous, restless, ugly, I can't control or concentrate, I'm going crazy, It's like my mind has a mind of it's own and I can't control it, I felt so frustrated that I- You smell like love, doc, Del has, She has this sweet smell of everything, a mix of everything, that's what I call smell of love." Mai's eyes widened. "How do you know all that?" Eun smiled, "Her. Her language, I studied it just to understand her, So, I understand."
"Everything is connected with this awful illness. I feel so bad." Mai spoke, taking a moment to feel guilty and pain. "Mhm, Now I've got to go, I need to sort the parents, Oh, what other insults may I have to bear, Give me strength, Lord." Eun spoke as she folded her hands and muttered a silent prayer. "Good thing I made the file a few moments ago.."
"When you come to know, the person you loved the most, the moments you treasured the most, Were nothing but a part of a living nightmare, What kind of hell would that be?"- Jung
