OUTCAST CHAPTER: FIFTEEN
"Love is the foundation of everything. It is impossible for anything to be formed without love."
"Jung! Wake up, P-please, w-wake up!" Hailey's and Augus's voice soared into the quiet yet very busy room. Jung was quietly sleeping on the bed he knew very well, it was the bed he laid on for the past 8 months, when he was 13 years old. "AH!" Jung's terrified scream boomed throughout the hospital thin walls. "S-she I-I D-Die!" Jung spoke distorted, placing worry on Eun's face. "Jungie, it's all calm, nothing happened, every thing is calm, Del had disappeared, and won't return, so please, calm down?" Eun asked calmly, despite the tornado of what if's in her mind. "S-she t-tried t-to k-kill me.. I was so scared," Jung cried out into his hands, his head wrapped in the white bandage, blood staining slowly on the snow-white cotton and the odd colour of the medicine. "no one will kill you now, okay? No one will, as long as Dr. Eun, Mom, Dad, Dr. Baek, Nurse Mai, will protect you always, okay?" Jung seemed to have calmed down, "o-oKAY." Eun's eyes hardened and blackened before saying. "Leave. Now." The boy smiled stupidly before hanging his head back and laughing, hysterically. "Haha! Omg, Laugh out loud kids!" The boy shook with laughter. "Leave. Now." Eun repeated her words. "What if I don't?" The boy stared back, his eyes cold and cruel, totally opposite from his happy and soft, fragile gestures. "Then I'll have to use the insulin shock, I saw how you trembled that day." Eun spoke, her voice laced with coldness. "W-what? That wasn't me! That was Him! That insolent little rat! That crazy Madhat! Wankass!" The boy cursed, "Of course it wasn't him, he knew he was going for Insulin shock, he agreed, if then why would he scream to let go?" The boy quieted. "Oops, sorry," Eun smirked before using the taser on minus one. The boy hadn't experienced the pain, so it was unbearable for him. "AHHH!" The boy screamed before getting knocked out. "Areum! What happened?!" Hailey and Augus, who previously went out, came in at the shout. "Just used a taser of minus one on him, sorry her." Eun spoke, as it was a normal thing, it was as saying 'I just farted." Hailey's eyes widened, but she and Augus understood the meaning behind. "Ah, Is he okay now.. She didn't come back, did she?" As much as Augus knew the truth, he just wanted someone to jump out of nowhere and say april fool, And his dear son to wake up, he loved Jung, he really did. "Fortunately, it was mild, but we might need to continue on his medications. Stopping it, didn't really work." It was true, Jung stopped on his medications, since it was problematic for him, it made him sleepless, and he felt empty. "But you guys are okay right?" Eun asked, now noticing the fracture held on Hailey's hand, and another one on Augu's hand, a couple of bandages and normal plasters were covering small scratches and wounds as well. "ah, yeah, we alright, our air bags protected us, it was Jung, who flew out of the half-split car." Hailey spoke, smiling. "Get a month free from work, we need to fix Jung."
SOME WEEKS LATER
Jung's medication, now improved, let him sleep and Del was out of his hair, more like disappeared. But Jung's college students did bully him a lot for his mental problems, Also being the son of the idol, and being adopted just put more pressure on the bullying. He did feel a lot outcasted as some ignored him, called him names, and did pranks on him. Now sitting on the beach side, with his favourite doctor and watching the sunset as well as watching his parents play in the salted water, as he talked about his problems to his favourite doctor. "I'm an Outcast, aren't I?" Jung asked Eun, "Now why would you say that?" Eun comforted the now 17 year old. "You see, everyone keeps ignoring me, just because they think I'm a killer, worse, a nightmare, a heartless person." Eun sighed. "Mental Illnesses are not so easily understood, Psychology is often known as home cooking or face reading, but Psychology is 100 times much more than that, everything is easy until you get to know the insides. When you dig the secrets, to the depth." Jung smiled at the new-learned knowledge. "Thanks, Dr. Eun." Eun smiled too, "Above all else, embrace your flaws." Jung decided to listen for once, and make the best out of what god had given him. He decided to embrace his flaws. As he'll embrace himself. He decided to learn to Love himself, as he loved his neighbour. His breath, path and story, would be his answer. Answer: Love Myself.
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"You've shown me I have reasons, I should love myself, Answer me with all my breath and the path I've walked, Yesterday's me, today's me, tomorrow's me, I'm learning how to love myself"
- BTS ANSWER: LOVE MYSELF
