Apologies. A Rin Matsuoka x Reader

6.

          Hey Y/N! Y/N! A voice echoed. Gasping for air I suddenly shot open my eyes and looked around. There I laid on the cold floor of the pool looking up at the surrounding familiar faces. I counted the heads that looked so worried at me, one was missing. "Rin." I coughed. "Easy there tiger, you just almost drowned on us!" Makoto said. I tried my best to sit up, Makoto rested his hand on my back, helping me with it. "Wh-where is he?" I said lazily. The two got quiet for a second and looked at each other. I rested my hand on my head and looked up at Haru, who was looking blankly at the ground. "He left." Haru said slowly. My eyes widened as I proceeded to get up to unfortunately be greeted with a dizzy spell. "What did I just tell you Y/N?" Makoto shouted as he held my shoulders with his hands. "Sorry Makoto. Haru, why did he leave? I needed to beat him." I said in a raspy voice. My body continued to ache from the water as I just went limp into Makoto's touch and stared at Haru with frails of my hair in my face. "...He said you weren't worth the bet." Haru looked away from us. My heart felt like it stopped for a moment. Rin thought that I wasn't worth the race, after all the practices, body aches, and medals from the nationals. I wasn't worth it. I finally had the strength to hold myself up but, instead of looking at the guys, I kept my sight to the ground and proceeded to go into the locker room. "Y/N!" Makoto shouted. "I'm going home." I said quietly.

         Slamming my back against the closed locker door I stared into the harsh, bright lights above me. The buzz of the lights filled my inner thoughts. He said you weren't worth the bet. "Stupid." I whispered as I slid down the locker doors and onto the floor. The social anxiety couldn't even comprehend the feeling I felt after I heard those words from Haru. "Forget it, I should just stop this." I muffled into my forearm. I sat there for a minute until I decided to dress myself back into my normal clothing and exited the park. The sun was starting to set as I stood at the rideshare area, waiting on the uber to drive back home. From that day after I left the park I had made an oath to myself that I, Y/N, would never step back into the water ever again.