Dearest || Lnrs

Empathic Mind

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'There's this moment in time that you'll eventually leave everything in this world and only bring your memories. Now ask yourselves, what lasting memories do you want to watch when everything plays out infront of your eyes?'

Out of nowhere you've thought about Theresia. Ana Theresia Hontiveros, the one and only senator of your heart. Was there even an escape from her? Didn't think so.

The universe communicates with you day by day, but you chose to be blinded by fear especially when she dated the other senator. You didn't backout from any fights in your life however you easily give up on her. Was it even love in the first place? Perhaps an friendship that you lost? Was she too friendly or you just didn't know when to stop wearing your rose colored glasses? Possibly it wasn't her who was wrong. It was you who was toxic.

This is not self blame take it as realization that nothing in this world is or ever was perfect. Perfection can only be achieved by the mind if you deemed to be, other than that things you can't control aren't.

The love beyond her given to you, I would say 'Sinayang mo'. Kaso this is not the blame game, kahit kainin ka ng guilt wala na yung magagawa. Move on? Move forward? Never move at all? May tatabi pa rin sayo in the course of time para may matutunan kang bago.

Si Iza yon, you didn't try to control scenarios with her unlike the other, you treated her much better. However at the back of your mind you see Theresia face, hearing her voice cracking begging you to be with her because she misses you. The 8 pm calls that are full of 'I wish you were here", "I want to hug you so badly" or "I cant wait to spend more time with you", bursted like an bubble.

Lahat ng iyon, no trace. Other than your children, no one knew the real score. Kahit ikaw hindi mo alam kasi di mo pinanindigan. Kaya ngayon naninindigan ka na. Pipiliin mo na kasi alam mong di mo maatim na iba ang mamahalin kaso sino naman ang babalikan mo?

Nakita na ng dalawang mata mo, si Iza at Risa sa charity event. Sunduin mo sana aamin ka ng totoo mong nararamdaman, kaso anong nakita at narinig mo?

Mag kadikit sa dilim, magkalapit ang mukha, at nagaalab na mga tingin.

You exactly knew what that is kasi once you've been exactly in that garden with Theresia. Same scenario.

Ito yung naramdaman niya. Ang hapdi, napatakbo ka palayo dahil diyan ka magaling. Ang lumayo nang walang paalam.