Blazing Red (Book 3) (COMPLETE)

Realized

Shyann POV

EVERYTHING HURTS

EVERY F*CKING THING HURTS

"Hey girly, if you can hear me. Just wanted to let you know... I don't blame you for what you did. If that's the reason your not waking up, you can quit that thought. I'm tired of walking in here and your not up. It's been a couple weeks now and your brother isn't taking this well. He misses you; hell, we all miss you. Who else's ass can I kick without being too easy"

'Is this how Raph talks to dead people?'

"What I'm saying is, wake yo ass up cause it's boring here"

"What the shell.. is that how you feel when you talk to a lifeless person?"

"Told yall it would work"

'Oh shell, it did!'

My vision was coming and going but I could see of who the blobs of identifying colors were without a guess. My head aches with a pounding sensation, I wonder how long I been out of it. The weight of someone almost breaking my back, turned out to be Angela over excited self.

It let my eyes focus on the emerald ones in front of me that never seem to leave mine. Seemed that him, Angela, and Casey were the only ones in here. I examined my brother and he seemed alright while sitting in a corner.

"How long was I out?" I asked hearing the hoarseness in my voice.

"Why didn't you tell me Shyann?" Casey let out, not seeming to be in a playful mood where he stood in the corner in the darker shade of the already dim room.

Angela didn't seem to care and answered, "Three weeks, Don said the red circles around you did the trick with healing you. We were just waiting for you to wake up silly"

She smiled at me, but why? I was the cause of my families suffering, the reason for the turtles to be busted up and bruised, for my brother to get kidnapped and had to see that mayhem. I wouldn't care if I had to experience the death of myself over again if I could wipe everyone's memory from that night.

"Shyann, why the hell didn't you say anything to us. That you were working with Shredder this whole time. Is that why Mom couldn't stop calling you and making you do everything?" He continued seemingly trying to force the answers out of me.

I didn't answer, too stubborn for my own good. I felt a drag on my clothes and let my brother harshly look at me with a angered stare.

"Answer me! Are you even my sister after all that? I watched you die and mom only laughed at that shit and some how your a witch. When we brought you back to the lair, Donnie said you were already healed. How the hell does that happen? What happened to us trusting each other? Huh?"

His hands keep shaking me as I had no right to look at him. I kept him from all this so he would be safe, I handled all the abuse and bloodshed from our mother so he wouldn't have to. I gave up my happiness to make sure he could go and enjoy his teenage life like he should. I got put through trials and got handed to the damn Shredder, to make sure he could see my 'happy' mask so he wouldn't worry.

...And I deserve every painful heart string to get plucked.

"Your right-"

"Shut up Jones!" Raph spoke surprisingly through the conversation making us look at him.

The turtle got off his chair and walked towards the black haired boy in front of me as he continued, "Yeah she lied which I should beat her ass for. But you even heard and saw for yourself. She's wrapped up from top to bottom with cuts and bruises because she only had that one hope to be happy and that was you, Casey. Anyone could tell that she did all that endurance for you even if you didn't ask for it cause that's what family does. They go through hell and back to make sure their family is safe. If you were in the same boat, you would've done the same"